"The affairs dented my self respect"

[Macfan4life]

Originally Posted by Penguin Emeritus

yesss that was pretty fascinating. so interesting to see her viewpoint as to that time, because that's a period we've never heard much about from her. also very interesting to see that she also had kids on her mind in the beginning because she's not ever said much about that either, but she's right that it was probably good that they *didn't*. and if she'd divorced him then, we'd never have had the Rumours five...so i'm glad they hung in. after all that upheaval, it's interesting that john was sooo absolutely devastated/suicidal by the curry thing, when she left for good. i guess he didn't really see that coming, that she'd really end it. i maintain that he adored her but the drinking just really f*cked everything up so badly for so many years.

The only part i question is the part where jones said the marriage to ed was a dud from the start. george hawkins was pretty sure in what he told me that she reeeally loved him for a while, and tried her hardest to keep that marriage together for waaay longer than she should have. and he was very close to her at that time. but on the other hand i wonder if she also knew ed's reputation as well as others did when she married him...? or if she just chose to disregard that, just because she wanted 'to be married' and fulfil that happily ever after part that she could never get right.

i think if john read parts of this, he'd feel sad......but he certainly made it up to her in later years. he was a rock in her life until her dying breath. They did love each other.


--Lis

That comment about Eddy through me for a loop too. She seemed really happy in 1984 and 1985 before they married. However it could have been one of those relationships that started to dissolve right after marriage. He seemed to be her biggest cheerleader for awhile. As she said, he would always keep her updated on chart positions of her songs. She even gave him writing credits so they must have written together some. We did get one awesome love song about Eddy "Nights in Estoril."
Fleetwood Mac is an odd band for many reasons. The couples issue is one of them. But they were not just couples. Each couple had major issues but each still would be the love of their entire life which impacted their life and the band. Chris and John were jealous of each other's affairs but eventually came full circle and got along. Stevie and Lindsey never went full circle but still had/have this jealous rage thing while were still writing songs about their relationship decades later.
What this small excerpt reveals is the Rumours saga of sleeping around was not new to the band at all. It just came more into focus with now 2 women in the band.
She had some very dark days in Kent. I am so happy she got well and experienced the joy of performing again for the fans. She really fed off that energy.
Because of her fragility or the "dent in her self respect" from the affairs could shed light on why she fell and stayed with Dennis. Many hurt women fall for guys that will hurt them.
I can only imagine how tense things were in the studio or on the road between Chris and John and then add Bob Weston's affair to the mix. It sheds some light on how miserable Bob Welch was. Being the only American with these Brits and these shenanigans was just too much.