"The affairs dented my self respect"

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Originally Posted by Macfan4life

Its interesting to read about how fragile Chris was. She was always seen as the strong one. The one that no one messed with. But her words here about the early years and not wanting to divorce John because of what her father would think and she was too scared to walk away shows a side of Chris we don't normally see. Its unique to read about her fragility in the early years.

yesss that was pretty fascinating. so interesting to see her viewpoint as to that time, because that's a period we've never heard much about from her. also very interesting to see that she also had kids on her mind in the beginning because she's not ever said much about that either, but she's right that it was probably good that they *didn't*. and if she'd divorced him then, we'd never have had the Rumours five...so i'm glad they hung in. after all that upheaval, it's interesting that john was sooo absolutely devastated/suicidal by the curry thing, when she left for good. i guess he didn't really see that coming, that she'd really end it. i maintain that he adored her but the drinking just really f*cked everything up so badly for so many years.

The only part i question is the part where jones said the marriage to ed was a dud from the start. george hawkins was pretty sure in what he told me that she reeeally loved him for a while, and tried her hardest to keep that marriage together for waaay longer than she should have. and he was very close to her at that time. but on the other hand i wonder if she also knew ed's reputation as well as others did when she married him...? or if she just chose to disregard that, just because she wanted 'to be married' and fulfil that happily ever after part that she could never get right.

i think if john read parts of this, he'd feel sad......but he certainly made it up to her in later years. he was a rock in her life until her dying breath. They did love each other.


--Lis