"The affairs dented my self respect"

[Macfan4life]

Originally Posted by Penguin Emeritus

I agree, that must have been a tough time for her. It never sounds like she was all that satisfied with her personal life emotionally. and while she had tons of money, that certainly doesn't buy true happiness. IMO it does seem like she hung on to her 2nd marriage way longer than she should have, but she obviously didn't want to be alone. and after ed was gone, it seems that being alone in that house wasn't doing her any favors in terms of her mental health. I wonder if she ever regretted moving during those years...?

--Lis

I can see why she did it but no doubt she regretted it later in her life. Restoring an old house in rural England sounds like fun. She knew that she wanted to only do a few more years in the biz. But with BTM being such a disappointment and her father dying really facilitated her exit. She was sort of forced to do Time. She did not want to do it and Warner told Mick they needed one of their famous singers or no deal. Didn't she record tracks from England and send them to the States? She was reluctant to do the Dance and refused to tour Europe. She was unhappy but going to Kent full time really isolated her and made things so much worse. It sounds crazy to say but thank goodness she took that horrible fall that made her have a glimpse of reality and get clean and seek therapy. Stevie also took a brutal fall that made her finally decide to kick klonopin.
The joy she experienced back with the band was tremendous. It truly was a miracle.
Being that BTM sort of bombed made her exit easier though. Imagine if it was a huge success with multiple hit singles. There would have been pressure on her especially from Mick to keep going. Let's not forget. Fleetwood Mac called it quits and had a "Farewell Tour" in late 1990.
A canary in the coal mine of her unhappiness in Kent was that interview she did with a woman to promote ITM. Its that interview with the annoying music in the background. Chris is so out of character. She seems annoyed, impatient, and genuinely not happy like: Lets get this thing over. Making that album was probably so therapeutic for her working with her nephew. It gave her purpose and they made a fantastic album. But I think after that project was done, things got really bad. She even started smoking again.