"The affairs dented my self respect"

[SteveMacD]

I like how she beats around the bush without directly addressing the elephant in the room, at least in what was posted.

John becoming a father in February, 1989, while she was in an unhappy marriage and then losing her dad less than a year and a half later had to be hell. I’m not saying she resented or wasn’t thrilled for John and his family, but by August, 1990, Christine was definitely “jumpin’ at shadows, thinkin’ ‘bout her life.” For all of her fame and fortune, she really didn’t have much that was intrinsic to show for it.