I'm Almost heartbroken sp please help me..

[BellaDonna93]

So, I've told you guys this. But I have to know what to do. And I have to get the words from you, because it was you I got to know 3 years ago when I came here. This gonna be a long explanation.
Most of you know, that I was the biggest Stevie fans in Sweden and that I was obsessed with her...now everything has changed when you come to that part. Stevie has, in some way and I really don't know why, disappeared from my life. It was some months ago, maybe a half year ago. I just stopped listen to her music. And I started to listen to other music. And now, I never listen to her or The Mac. Which, what I think, is really strange when you think of how obsessed I was a half year ago. When Stevie held my hand at the Stockholm concert with The Mac in October...
And now, at this moment, I cry like someone had died...I cry like I haven't cried in years. My mascara is all over the face, and I cry just because of this. I want it all to be like before, like last year. I want it all back in my life again. I want to take part of all the threads here and talk about her "This is not a tour tour"...but I don't. I'm not here at The Ledge anymore. I'm still a member, but I'm not spending time here like I always did. I listen to a song I wrote to Stevie in 2007, called Silver Angel:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xZHgXZTqwl4
I remember how I felt when I sat in my room, a 14 almost 15 years old little girl, with only one thing in her mind. Stevie Nicks. The one who always made me happy when I was sad, the one who I dreamd of every night, the one that I wanted to hold my hand with, the one I then held my hand with and I was so happy that night. October 10th 2009. The REAL Stevie Nicks had touch my hand and soul, finally.
But now...I never think of it that much. Well, of course sometimes, and very much right now. I miss you Stevie, and I miss you all Ledgies.

So now I wonder, has something like this happened to you too????
And have you returned to be a Stevie fan again after you've felt like this?
It seems like even if I start to listen to Stevie that much again, It'll never be like before. I just don't think so, though I really really want. Maybe when her new album is released I will return to the one I was. I hope so. I really do, because I miss you <3