Do you believe in love at first sight?

[ontheEdgeof17]

I think it has happened to me....

Let me start from the beginning.

As some of you know, I was in a serious, committed relationship for two years. We lived together, traveled the world together, did everything together. Then, disaster. This past New Years, we were in London, having a ball. One night, my boyfriend just blurted out, "I can't do this anymore", and he broke up with me during our two week vacation in Europe. I came back to the states early and hibernated with a friend in Pittsburgh. Eventually, I had to go back to NYC and to our apartment. His grandma died, and he was in Denver for a week after I returned to the city....

Well, of course it was a disasterous break-up. I found out he had been cheating on me with a 23 year old (He's 33). It went back and forth for weeks....he moved out...but came back...we made love over and over....he left again...came back....over and over. We had a talk one night and he said he was in love with two ppl...me and this other ****er. Ugh. I was devastated....heartbroken....lifeless.....

Eventually, it totally fell a part by mid February. I had no desire to share my love with someone else. At that point, I decided to just be single for awhile...no dating...no falling in love....no desires for sex. I've been hanging out with my best friend (along with my roommate, co-workes, and neighbor) a lot, and we have been having the best time!

Now. A week ago Saturday, I was waiting for my friend to meet me at the West 4th stop on the F line....I NEVER take the F line. We were going to a show in the East Village. As I was walking along the track to find a place to stand, I met eyes with someone. I instantly stopped in my tracks. I was in awe. I felt in love and like I knew this guy forever. He smiled, but we didn't talk....a few glances. He got on the oncoming train, but my friend wasn't there yet, so I waited. As the door to the train closed, we smiled at each other. I thought that would be the last time I would see him.

The next afternoon, I felt weird inside, like there was something urgent I had to do. Oddly, it was to check "missed connections" on Craigslist. And there it was.....not one, but two messages about me from this guy...asking me to find him.....Weird. I never go on that site and would have never imagined anyone trying to find me. Obviously, I responded and went out on a date that first night. It was wonderful.....as was the second date....amazing.

It is now Monday. I haven't seen him since Wednesday, since his friend from LA was in town for the weekend. We are going to dinner tonight.

Is this a love at first sight thing? Fate? Right place, right time? For the first time in my life, I feel complete. Too early for that? I'm freaking out a little because 1) it is too early in the relationship to feel this way and 2) I just had my heart pulled out my chest with the last guy.

Any advice? Do I just run with it or stay guarded?

----everything happens for a reason, stay clear----