I fee like poo.

[DrummerDeanna]

I had this great weekend only to get slammed with sh*t once I get home.

Allow me to vent...and that's pretty much all this is - a vent session...so forgive me, I am reluctant to write about this on my MySpace blog simply because three of my friends are cousins and this bitchfest could reach the wrong eyes.

So my mom and sister have not been speaking - for months now. I stay out of it - I figure it's not my fight so I don't take sides. My mom and sister have ALWAYS had a rocky relationship - my sister and I are 10 years apart and had very different upbringings...

Anyway. Ok - so this weekend was my sister's birthday so I went to Albuquerque to spend it with her. It's a relatively close drive, whereas my hometown (where my mom lives) is NOT a close drive. So anyway - I get back and my mom calls...all fake, "I'm so glad you were able to go...ok bye."

Sounds fishy so I call back and ask what her deal is and she talks about how I've rejected her by going to Albuquerque, and well she dredged up **** from years ago to throw back in my face (I HATE HATE HATE when people do that.)

Anyway - then she basically says that I can write her off as my mom. Now - ok - this means she is going to go to all of her friends (basically the whole town) and talk about her evil mean daughters who have disowned her.

It pisses me off because she keeps saying, "I don't want to make you choose sides.." But clearly she's mad because I'm not "on her side" And now SHE is making the choice to cut off communication...it's because I went to visit this weekend.

So now I feel like ****, but I'm not apologizing, their fight is not my fight and I've said over and over I don't want to get in the middle - I thought I was doing a pretty good job but no.

Actually I think the underlying issue is extreme jealousy of the relationship my sister and I have. But that, too, is my mom's fault...my sister was largely responsible for raising me - and well we're now close... But instead of beign happy her daughters are close she HATES it and well crap like this ensues.

Anyway....today sucks ass - but I know my problems are small compared to others - I just needed to bitch and get this off my chest.