How much of an idiot are you?

[SuzeQuze]

Originally Posted by The Catdancer

Idiot??? Me??? No way..... hell, yeah. Let me tell you my story, if nobody is interested, I don't care, just ignore it.
OK, at age 14 I knew I was a lesbian (Stevie made me think about me LOL), so I had girlfriends, went to gay bars etc. At age 33 I meet this man Dirk. I have nothing against men so we became friends and he was a true gentleman, the knight in shining armour etc. We were friends for about 6 months and suddenly it hit me..... I was in love with a man!!!!! Panick city but I decided there was nothing wrong with that, you have no control over your feelings etc. I knew he was in love with me and in Oct. '96 we became a couple. The first few months were great but than he started drinking and doing drugs, mainly cocaine. I saw this man change from the knight into a demon. The first time he hit me was Jan. '97. I should've walked away right then and there. I didn't. I had this crazy idea:"If this relationship doesn't work, I'll be alone for the rest of my life". I stayed with him for 4 1/2 years and he beat me up so badly my own doctor didn't even recognize me. Every time he was drunk or on coke all hell broke lose. In Feb. 2001 we had a fight about a little thing: he had f***** up the computer and I fixed it. He couldn't stand it that I could do it and he couldn't. He screamed obsceneties and wanted to beat me up again and all of a sudden it hit me:"This isn't going anywhere, this will only get worse. One of us is gonna be killed but it's not going to be me". So while he was screaming and yelling I started to pack my stuff, took my cat and got the hell out. I was single for a few years, didn't trust anyone but then I moved to the USA in 2004 and met Peg, the love of my life and we've been together eversince. She is the most wonderful woman on this earth. We plan to get married and spend the rest of our lives together. But an idiot I was.... big time!!!!!

I love your sig. It's tough to get out of any relationship. When it's a abusive you don't think straight because they screw with your sense of who you are. Many people waste many more years than you did. I'm so glad to hear you're with a great person now