I passed up a doughnut.

DrummerDeanna · #1 09-08-2006, 12:12 PM

Do you know how hard it is for someone with food issues to say no to a big plate full of beautiful doughnuts? It's really f**king hard.

It's not just that I like to eat, my sister and I both have actual problems with food. So no jibes, please, about how I don't know how to eat healthy on my own, or that I'm a moron, it's a realy issue and I hate it.

I realize that I am, in fact, VERY lucky to not weigh more than I do. The way I've eaten in the past - I should be well over 200 pounds. I think the saving factor is that I don't lead a sedentary life, and up until about two years ago I was an AVID gym goer - I mean I was fierce...so I was able to eat like a pig - and maintain an OK weight. I've never been skinny -and never will be.

Anyway - it's truly one of the hardest things to do just to say no to a stupid doughnut - and I hate that I have these food issues, I hate that it's SUCH an obsession with me.

I'm starting to think some of my co-workers are food-pushers, which I hate.

We had ice-cream cake last week (which thankfullY I don't like all that much - but in the past I would have eaten it anyway). Anyway - I said no and got all sorts of pressure for not eating any ice cream cake. I finally lied and told everyone I was lactose intolerant. Great - so now do I have to be lactose intolerant for my tenure at this station?

Anyway - food issues really really suck.

SuzeQuze · #2 09-08-2006, 12:21 PM

Okay, you're my idol. I can never pass up food!

DrummerDeanna · #3 09-08-2006, 01:03 PM

^^
Me Either, which is why this is such a big deal. And I know one doughunt - not bad - but I then have trouble stopping - that's the issue - the over-eating and over-eating the crap. I HATE it....but I'm working on it

carrie721 · #4 09-08-2006, 01:27 PM

ooh, that's hard, i know. good job! seriously, the longer you persevere with healthy eating, the easier it will get to pass up unhealthy food. keep on truckin', girl.

skcin · #5 09-08-2006, 01:35 PM

OK. I officially designate this thread as our new "diet/lifestyle change/wieght loss support thread."

I've been wanting to start another thread about this subject again (can't seem to locate the diet & exercise one, plus it's probably pretty old), so we don't have to keep highjacking the "what are you eating" thread. Those who post there & are able to eat Big Macs daily without a problem (bastards) probably don't give a **** how may calories or points are in an almond.

So. Yes. Let's discuss how f*cking hard it is to lose weight & resist temptation here. I agree about the food pushing - at my old job, someone would bring crap in a few times a week, whether it was donuts, bagels, rolls, pizza, whatever. It sucked. To see it & smell it & know how good it tastes (but how bad it is) sucks. Hard. I'd usually eat it.

New job - healthier people, it seems. Takeout meals are few & far between, same with treats. So that's a good thing. One thing I've learned is that if something's not available to me, I don't really want it. Like, I never buy donuts for my home, I just don't care to. But if they're out on a table at work, I'd want one.

BTW - I'm about 4 pounds down after 2&1/2 weeks. Slow & steady wins the race, right? Plus, I'm def. seeing more muscle tone & definition, at least in my arms.

HomerMcvie · #6 09-08-2006, 01:36 PM

Me too. I LOVE food, and I mean REAL food, none of that rabbit crap!!!!! Gimme melted cheese and grease!!!!!!! Sweets are okay, but definitely NOT my obsession. Gimme melted cheese and grease!!!!!!! I think I've accepted that I'm always going to be 25 lbs overweight. I CAN weigh 160, by eating rabbit food, and working out 3 days a week.....ALWAYS being hungry......and never allowing myself "good" food. F*CK THAT!!!! Life's too short. Gimme melted cheese and grease!!!!!!!
By the way, did I mention, Gimme melted cheese and grease!!!!!!!

DrummerDeanna · #7 09-08-2006, 02:25 PM

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Originally Posted by carrie721

ooh, that's hard, i know. good job! seriously, the longer you persevere with healthy eating, the easier it will get to pass up unhealthy food. keep on truckin', girl.

No offense - but that's so not true

It may be for some - but that's never been the case for me. This isn't my first go at the health thing - several years ago I was all über good eater - but the temptation got to me and then got out of hand. Oh - well ok - it's EASIER but never easy

I hate the "just take one bite of the cake - it's the best one" bull****! The whole piece tastes just as good as that first bite - and let me tell ya -the second piece tastes even better

The "bring a piece of fruit to a party where you know there will be temptation - you won't even miss the bad food" Again - bull****!

The people who say those things totally don't understand compulsive eaters or the food obsessed

That said - I am actually doing pretty well with the eating - it's just a contant battle and sometimes (like today) the bitch and bitter side of me comes out. sigh.

I'm glad others are undergoing this feat too though - it makes it easier

JazmenFlowers · #8 09-08-2006, 02:28 PM

^^^
I live in the South. home of sugar-coated, Crisco-loving, if-it-is-edible-we-fry-it hips and thighs. believe me, I know how hard it is to resist. I do think it gets easier. you just have to really be committed and have your head in it.

like my Mama used to say, you won't do it until YOU really WANT to.

greatdarkwing · #9 09-08-2006, 02:35 PM

Deanna you are not alone! I practically used to live on grease, carbs, and sugars, which is why I used to look like this..

After a long, and painful, fight with my weight, I decided it was time to lose it and I did. After 11 months, I had gone from 261 pounds and a size 42 waist to a 180ish pound 34/32 waist. I will be honest, I am Cuban and giving up any of the fattening stuff I liked was not easy. Like Deanna said, I would get on the treadmill and just run and run and run sometimes for HOURS. But this also meant I didnt have to give up the doughnuts and what-nots. However, (I will admit this for the first time here because I am very much over it and comfortable enough to share it) this briefly led to an eating disorder, which I was able to get a hand on very quickly.

This is basically how I look today. I am not nearly where I want to be as I am trying to lose/tone down the last 10 pounds. But let me tell you, everyday is a CONSTANT struggle. Plus, it does not help that I am a night owl and up until 3A.M. and it is VERY hard to resist the temptation to eat anything at 1 or 2 in the morning. So, trust me, this is something that never completely goes away, but little battles like the won you just won help towards the bigger picture.

carrie721 · #10 09-08-2006, 02:40 PM

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Originally Posted by DrummerDeanna

No offense - but that's so not true

It may be for some - but that's never been the case for me. This isn't my first go at the health thing - several years ago I was all über good eater - but the temptation got to me and then got out of hand. Oh - well ok - it's EASIER but never easy

I hate the "just take one bite of the cake - it's the best one" bull****! The whole piece tastes just as good as that first bite - and let me tell ya -the second piece tastes even better

The "bring a piece of fruit to a party where you know there will be temptation - you won't even miss the bad food" Again - bull****!

The people who say those things totally don't understand compulsive eaters or the food obsessed

That said - I am actually doing pretty well with the eating - it's just a contant battle and sometimes (like today) the bitch and bitter side of me comes out. sigh.

I'm glad others are undergoing this feat too though - it makes it easier

well, okay, maybe it's not the case for everyone. but i would absolutely put myself in the food-obsessed/compulsive eater category. what i posted earlier is true for me, but not everything works for everybody. sorry it's not true for you. maybe the years i spent in therapy before starting this diet did the trick.

skcin · #11 09-08-2006, 02:40 PM

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Originally Posted by HomerMcvie

Me too. I LOVE food, and I mean REAL food, none of that rabbit crap!!!!! Gimme melted cheese and grease!!!!!!! Sweets are okay, but definitely NOT my obsession. Gimme melted cheese and grease!!!!!!! I think I've accepted that I'm always going to be 25 lbs overweight. I CAN weigh 160, by eating rabbit food, and working out 3 days a week.....ALWAYS being hungry......and never allowing myself "good" food. F*CK THAT!!!! Life's too short. Gimme melted cheese and grease!!!!!!!
By the way, did I mention, Gimme melted cheese and grease!!!!!!!

I too am tempted more by "cheese & grease" type foods than sweets. One mini piece of chocolate a day is all I need, but bring out Doritos & I'm screwed.

Same with chips, or pizza, or burgers, or even pasta....

Not that I eat 5 burgers at one sitting or anything like that. But in general this is the stuff I overindulge in, or ignore portion size. I can stop at 1 piece of cake, but damned if I don't want another helping of garlic bread, or pizza, or chicken fingers, or fries. God, fries.

I will (and have) keep eating them regardless of whether I'm full. I try to stay away to avoid this.

I'm trying to eat better more for health reasons - high cholesterol & heart disease are very prevelant in my fam. I'm trying to avoid the same mistakes they've made. I want to lose about 10 more pounds, but I'm not about to kill myself to get thin. I don't like rabbit food either - I'm just trying to eat less bad food.

sara1998 · #12 09-08-2006, 02:45 PM

Well, I screwed up yet again today. I have got to do better. We had a recognition lunch here at work for those of us who worked together on a project. So, we went to a nice downtown restraunt and had lunch, and what did I get? A big ol' hamburger with caramelized onions, cheddar, and mushrooms with fries. That's the only thing I've had today. But I regret it. I can stay away from sweets with no problem, but when it comes to lunches and the sort, I have a really hard time.

DrummerDeanna · #13 09-08-2006, 02:45 PM

^^

That could very well be - it probably wouldn't hurt for me to seek other help to talk about my food issues. I mean - the first week of eating right - I was pretty much depressed all week.

But yes, it gets easier - just never easy. As Alex said, it's a constant struggle.

Of course - it's helped that this week I'm learning that healthy cooking can also be delicious - like the burrito I made last night ....oh. my. God. I can't even believe it's healthish it was so good.

Being an optimist (which I am NOT) would probably be good....should probably work on that too

JazmenFlowers · #14 09-08-2006, 02:46 PM

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Originally Posted by greatdarkwing

Deanna you are not alone!

damn. you look awesome. good for you.

Quote:

Originally Posted by skcin

bring out Doritos & I'm screwed.

Same with chips, or pizza, or burgers, or even pasta....

you and I are so much alike it's scary. Doritos are my favorite thing in the world, next to Reese's. I don't like pizza all that much, but fries and pasta? ****. watch out.

sara1998 · #15 09-08-2006, 02:47 PM

Oh, and by the way, Deanna, I love the name of this thread. Makes me LOL every time I read it!