Death?

[estranged4life]

I have been surrounded by death in my family

I have ongoing nightmares about seeing my Mom in her casket. That is the one image I would be glad to never have to have again in this lifetime, but it is one that constantly haunts me in my dreams (What is worse is the image of my murdered half-sister I have in my head from the visit at the funeral home in 1990-One I wont describe here)...And it either makes me depressed or pisses me the f**k off!

Worse is that I only dream of my own demise, never of anyone else I am close too...I dont think that is a good sign considering my families history.