Please help me. I don't know what to do.

[sasja]

I honestly am trying to understand what you are asking.

Help with which?

I am sorry you are hurting.

Personally, however you are able, if it is physically and mentally and emotionally possible for you, -- for me, personally, life always improves by leaps and bounds the moment I start volunteering, helping others, joining a community project, those kinds of things.

Stepping outside myself and reaching helping hands. I know it sounds corny but it works like nothing else. For me at least.