"If I did it, I would have to tour."

[HomerMcvie]

Originally Posted by vivfox

That's true in some cases. In my case, being marijuana free for 4.5 years now shows me how paranoid I once was about unseen fears. Nowadays I feel like I can face any obstacle and deal with anything that comes my way. As a pothead I might have cowered in fear and drowned in my weed and now I am very well aware that the pot just made things worse.

It's funny that being clean is better for you. I'm the opposite...

So I'm absolutely terrified of heights/flying. I can force myself to fly, and never make a scene. The FA usually notices my white knuckles, and asks if I'm okay, but that's about it.

But to address the substance issue....when I'm in Nashville I usually walk from my hotel to downtown(I'm cheap, to save the $15 taxi fare = 15 minute walk), and this involves walking over a long bridge than spans the Cumberland river. Now, on my way over it, ON my way downtown(sober), I'm pretty scared. I don't get near the rail, and do my best to think about other things, to not think about how high I am. Now, on the way BACK, after probably 5-6 beers, and 5-6 shots, there is almost no fear at all. I'm cool as a cucumber, and the fear is 98% gone.

My fear of heights has grown over the years. I've been looking at apartments there, and was looking at an 8th floor apartment last month, and I couldn't go out on the balcony. I was paused at the doorway, and the lady showing it said, "just go out there and take a pic". I just shook my head, and she said, "that's why the first question you asked me, was if people place requests for lower floors, isn't it?". Yup. Terror.


And my flying rule is, if it's 1000 miles or less(16 hour drive), you put your happy ass on that plane, and I'll drive and meet you there. I'm more than happy to give up a day of my vacation, keeping my happy ass on the ground!