The Just Thought I'd Share Thread

[HomerMcvie]

May I share my dark side?

My ex dumped me, like a hot potato, on Jan 2nd. And the past 69 days have been absolute f*cking hell for me. I've not been this down(with one exception) ever. Absolutely distraught.

So I'm on vacation. Ran into a friend from high school last night(believe it or not, 300 miles from home!). And we had the most AWESOME freaking day I've had in years, today. Partied like rock stars, ALL DAY($200 in bloody marys!), then went to dinner. Had a great dinner, laughing and enjoying each other. Then I go to pee, before we leave the restaurant...

Text pops in from my ex. "I'm so sorry for what I put you through. The guy I left you for, dumped me. So I know how you feel, and I just wanted to say that I'm sorry".

Moronic me...."well, I love you, and............xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx"(I only received a text back) "I just need time alone".

So, apparently, reconciliation isn't an option at this point(and I'm fine with that, for now), BUT BUT BUT, I am secretly SO F*CKING happy, that my replacement was the DUMPER. Not the DUMPEE. The DUMPER. And that the ex is so upset. And that they're apart! "So this guy doesn't worship the ground you walk on(like me)?", is what I wanted to say....but of course I didn't.

I KNOW that that is mean, and I'm NOT a mean person, but I'm so relieved. 2012 has been eating me alive. A case of ketchup couldn't fix the sh*t sandwich that 2012 has been for me....

I feel MEAN, and that makes me feel badly about myself. But I'm just so happy that their relationship is over. I guess only for hopes of reconciliation(that, and I completely changed several things about myself....honestly, I became the "best me" that I ever have been(and was happy for the changes), and it still wasn't enough).

I wish I wanted somebody else, but I don't....I have been trying to talk myself into just "having a good time", but I just can't do it. I freaking wanna be married...Sick, huh? But I still feel mean, and feel badly about that...
JTIS.

[vivfox]

Originally Posted by HomerMcvie

May I share my dark side?
ketchup couldn't fix the sh*t sandwich that 2012 has been for me....

I love that ketchup expression. It's very creative. I'll use that sometime in the future.

You have a dark side?


Sorry you are going through so much anguish. Time heals all wounds.

[Dodfather]

Originally Posted by HomerMcvie

My ex dumped me, like a hot potato, on Jan 2nd. And the past 69 days have been absolute f*cking hell for me. I've not been this down(with one exception) ever. Absolutely distraught.

Text pops in from my ex. "I'm so sorry for what I put you through. The guy I left you for, dumped me. So I know how you feel, and I just wanted to say that I'm sorry".

BUT BUT BUT, I am secretly SO F*CKING happy, that my replacement was the DUMPER. Not the DUMPEE. The DUMPER. And that the ex is so upset. And that they're apart! "So this guy doesn't worship the ground you walk on(like me)?", is what I wanted to say....but of course I didn't.

I KNOW that that is mean, and I'm NOT a mean person,
I feel MEAN, and that makes me feel badly about myself. But I'm just so happy that their relationship is over. I guess only for hopes of reconciliation(that, and I completely changed several things about myself....honestly, I became the "best me" that I ever have been(and was happy for the changes), and it still wasn't enough).

You are not mean. If you were mean then you would have sent the text you describe but you didn't. You are, however, human and it's perfectly fine to feel this way if she dumped you and now he's done the same to her. It's very honest of you to admit feeling like that. I challenge anyone not to feel the same (at least a little) and if they say they don;t for at least 5 minutes and that they're always a "bigger" person, then I may even go so far as to say they're lying.

[HomerMcvie]

Originally Posted by vivfox

I love that ketchup expression. It's very creative. I'll use that sometime in the future.

You have a dark side?


Sorry you are going through so much anguish. Time heals all wounds.

Well, my heart was completely broken. I'm not a "depressed person", YET I have been, so far this year. I lost the love of my life. And the love of my life doesn't even want to get back together(yet?, I can only hope - why would you text your ex, to tell them that you got dumped???), but I can tell you that my mood for the year, went from ZERO, to about a 4, now, just from knowing that they broke up. Especially knowing that the guy who replaced me, was the dumper.

And I'm not proud of the fact that I'm so happy that they're done. But I am. Because I now have HOPE. I sort of consider that to be a dark thing. The thought of them riding off into the sunset, made me completely nauseous. While never suicidal, I really had no reason for wanting to live, from Jan 2nd until now....if that sounds melodramatic, that's not my intention, but it's honestly how I felt. 2012 - my Sh*t sandwich year. Seriously. I've been so down...like never before. And I now feel like it's over, just knowing that they're over. I'm ashamed of being so happy that they're finished.

Thank you. And it has been anguish. Like I've only known, one other time in my life. But at least I have hope now...and that feels like a lot.

[HomerMcvie]

Originally Posted by Dodfather

You are not mean. If you were mean then you would have sent the text you describe but you didn't. You are, however, human and it's perfectly fine to feel this way if she dumped you and now he's done the same to her. It's very honest of you to admit feeling like that. I challenge anyone not to feel the same (at least a little) and if they say they don;t for at least 5 minutes and that they're always a "bigger" person, then I may even go so far as to say they're lying.

Thank you, Alan. I feel like going on and on about it, but probably shouldn't.
Thank you.

Okay, last thought on it - just the thought of them NOT lying together now(as a possibility), feels like someone just lifted a car off of my chest!

I've got two days of vacation left in Nashville. I think I may actually be able to enjoy them! With a somewhat happier heart,....away I goooooooo!
What to eat????? I'm thinking Chinese!

[markolas]

Originally Posted by fringed n fab

My ideal over 40 kind of man. Who said 40 wasn't cute and sexy? I'd marry him.

Who is that? He's hot.

[fringed n fab]

Originally Posted by markolas

Who is that? He's hot.

He was in this month's issue of Sarasota Magazine, an article on over 40 Male beauty. And that he is

[wild-heart]

Listening to Pat Benatar when i really should be working. Awesome lady.

[vivfox]

The temperature got up to 76 today.It was nice but I worry that with global warming it's gonna feel like living in Arizona this summer in Massachusetts.

[fringed n fab]

Originally Posted by vivfox

The temperature got up to 76 today.It was nice but I worry that with global warming it's gonna feel like living in Arizona this summer in Massachusetts.

Sometimes I kind of buy into all that stuff, other times I listen to others and think it's just the earth ever changing like it always has over periods.

I had the thermostat set on 78 and the air kicked on about noon as it warmed up outside. I know though what it's like to have a nice 70-something degree day after winter up north. I can't wait for summer though even if it's hot. I love the sun, the afternoon awesome thunderstorms here. Then sunny again.

[Enchanted_Stevi]

Originally Posted by HomerMcvie

May I share my dark side?

My ex dumped me, like a hot potato, on Jan 2nd. And the past 69 days have been absolute f*cking hell for me. I've not been this down(with one exception) ever. Absolutely distraught.

So I'm on vacation. Ran into a friend from high school last night(believe it or not, 300 miles from home!). And we had the most AWESOME freaking day I've had in years, today. Partied like rock stars, ALL DAY($200 in bloody marys!), then went to dinner. Had a great dinner, laughing and enjoying each other. Then I go to pee, before we leave the restaurant...

Text pops in from my ex. "I'm so sorry for what I put you through. The guy I left you for, dumped me. So I know how you feel, and I just wanted to say that I'm sorry".

Moronic me...."well, I love you, and............xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx"(I only received a text back) "I just need time alone".

So, apparently, reconciliation isn't an option at this point(and I'm fine with that, for now), BUT BUT BUT, I am secretly SO F*CKING happy, that my replacement was the DUMPER. Not the DUMPEE. The DUMPER. And that the ex is so upset. And that they're apart! "So this guy doesn't worship the ground you walk on(like me)?", is what I wanted to say....but of course I didn't.

I KNOW that that is mean, and I'm NOT a mean person, but I'm so relieved. 2012 has been eating me alive. A case of ketchup couldn't fix the sh*t sandwich that 2012 has been for me....

I feel MEAN, and that makes me feel badly about myself. But I'm just so happy that their relationship is over. I guess only for hopes of reconciliation(that, and I completely changed several things about myself....honestly, I became the "best me" that I ever have been(and was happy for the changes), and it still wasn't enough).

I wish I wanted somebody else, but I don't....I have been trying to talk myself into just "having a good time", but I just can't do it. I freaking wanna be married...Sick, huh? But I still feel mean, and feel badly about that...
JTIS.

WOW that sucks!!! Stay single for awhile...it'll get better...you'll find the right person one day!!

I'm glad the person your ex left you for dumped them=P its like revenge...but not directly you doing the revenge lol

[Enchanted_Stevi]

JTIS...

That my friends and I rented a place in Old Orchard Beach, Maine for a week this summer in June =D The 23rd to the 30th...SO EXCITED!! Its like wicked close to the beach and walking distance to the pier =D

Oh and I am finally kind of getting used to working in the salon...I still get really nervous before work...but when I get to work it isnt bad...

[vivfox]

Originally Posted by Enchanted_Stevi

That my friends and I rented a place in Old Orchard Beach, Maine for a week this summer in June =D The 23rd to the 30th...SO EXCITED!! Its like wicked close to the beach and walking distance to the pier =D

My family is looking around for a beach rental and we almost rented there too. We would be arriving June 30th but wouldn't that have been cool had we been there at the same time? The kids were excited about that peer but it looks like we might end up in Hyannis instead.

[Macfanforever]

It was Beeeeeautiful outside today here in CT.I was digging holes in the back yard with my silver spoon.hehehehehe.Conposting pile.

[poetinmyheart]

JTIS that I am drowning in work. Teacher training is tough

On a side note, does anyone watch Game of Thrones? Saw an advert for it the other day and am intrigued.