The Just Thought I'd Share Thread

[HomerMcvie]

Matt, my 2.5 year relationship broke up on Jan 2nd, and I'm still having a terrible time with it. I actually feel worse about it, everyday. And it makes matters worse, that we're trying to remain friends. We texted a couple of nights ago, and the comments were nice, on both parts. THIS, was not good. It put me into a much deeper funk...

I honestly believed, for at least the past 15 months, that we were going to make it work out, for the long haul. I believed this, with all of my heart. We've broken up before, but it feels final, this time(although given our breakup history, I've always vowed, "never to say never").

We always had a lot of personal space, and time alone, which I was fine with. Not having someone in your arms, is one thing...not having them in your heart, is a another. I'm so freaking sad. If I were a suicidal person, I'd be in definite trouble right now(because I do feel THAT distraught - BUT NO, I'm not a suicidal person, before anyone reads something into that).

The hardest thing, is just remembering how to be alone. I was pretty much always alone, most of my life. I never minded it. I almost used to prefer it! I now LOATHE it. But day by day, I'll get through it...
JTIS

Matt, you're a really good guy. You'll find it. Just hang in there, and enjoy being yourself. Enjoy your friends. Enjoy life.