The Just Thought I'd Share Thread

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Originally Posted by vivfox

I would like to hear more about this. As a gay man myself I can tell you that I was quite aware that I was from a very young age. I can't even imagine that you walked around completely convinced you were str8 until your mid 20's. What was it that made you realize the truth?

God Mark...it would take an hour long phone call...

My partner of many years is like yourself. He knew at a young age that there was that something special feeling about boys.

He went to Catholic School...an all boys Catholic School. Grew up in the Irish part of the Inner City Boston...South Boston/Neponset.

I would love to share this whole story...you would never believe the characters...twists and turns and how I found true love is, like Stevie said, totally blind.

My first gay relationship was in my mid 20s. I was an actor/cologne and the supposed "straight wear" store in all the malls...over priced, homoerotic advertisiments of shirtless and revealing wrinkled clothes...oh, well.

I was bartending in a short walk from where I had come to live in Berverly Hills...I'm saying this because the residents/neighbors etc..were so cruel...I should have lived in South Central LA...during the riots...the people would have been nicer to me there.

There was a group of guys that used to come and sit for a few beers or tequila shots or both. We became friendly and I really liked them. Then I would think about one. In a stirring kind of way, you know? Apparently, I have been hit on tons of times in my life. I never noticed...even when liberties were taken by someone grabbing my front and my back...and oddly if I was dancing or had my shirt open..they would touch me on my chest...I think this is too graphic...and too graphic for the rest...I would love to share with you...I will say this. I dated the prettiest girls in school. I met my steady in JR year of high school. We met as dancers in a show...come to find out here in Boston...at least at that time...there were no talent agencies per se...so you were reped by a modeling agency...and there we were booked for the local stores print ads..Like Jordan Marsh or Filenes and then commercials for Purity Supreme then I booked Spencer For Higher...twice...as different parts. Once they made me look about 30 when I was 19. They cut off all my hair to a wiffle. Anyway, my dance partner and my soon to be 1st love of my life, think Vanessa Carltons The One. We had the same agent...and we actually were booked together on the same projects alot. Again, she was like...that guy/girl is totally hitting on you. Even today, I can't tell.

This goes into very sad, sad like suicide stuff...

Returning as a person that doesn't want to be pigeonholed into a certain category or culture or group based upon my most private part of my life, behind closed doors in my bedroom. I also support, and advocate for gay people, marriage, civil rights, equality...etc..

I am a Catholic. Plus a lot of Spirituality learned by time and wisdom.

When I write an opinion article based on a recent event, usually Politically based...I get hate mail and threats...even from guys and girls that have the sexuality thing in common with me.

Again, these are my choices...but, I love people...everyone is different...and has their choices. Importantly God makes masterpieces not abominations...if he is the one that often represents LOVE in all organized religions...and in the one that don't belong to a Religion but, do what is love...like my website says.

This is what 2 of my opinions are. And it makes gay folk mad sometimes.

Gay Pride is totally fine. It gives men and women a feeling of safety, camaraderie....and a universal group of, uh...yeah we belong. I think it's great but, in my opinion the parade of has men in particular wearing next to nothing...and often exposing themselves...and then the gestures...I think you might know...also many that attend get a bit, pornographic and such that...If this is a parade because you are proud of who you are...and you are all fuc ed up on meth and margaritas...doing stupid stuff for the press to point to you as a representitive as ' A GAY' and the "PRIDE" think...if we want to belong in the world and spin around with everyone else...and marry, love, equal, recgonized, protected...fair treatment...

Don't do that stuff at a parade on a main street....with every news station is there to grab something sensational and run with it.

That doesn't represent me...or many people I know. So, if you want equal and a belonging and a recognized human..on the same as everyone level...
I think, in my opinion...you are going about it the wrong way.

The marriage thing. I am out there kicking down doors for Gay Equality...The true Constitution...not the radical right wing version with all the ammendment sh t....please...Michele and her husband Marcus...are covering up so much by not answering questions. Michele keeps the ones that are vocally identifiny as a gay man...yes, he is very effeminate. They are the true essence of what I would call the , Devil. Metaphorically. Check out my stuff and you'll see.

So, I will get married...when the next pope says, for God sake...you have been pissing off Christ with the old crusty mean judgemental rule book...kick it up...it's 2000 something.

Bring Gay people into the church...and say and preach what you practice on "even Christ himself never judged..."

It is like if Jesus was here today...they would murder him at a tea party for wearing a dress...