Owen Wilson - drug overdose/suicide attempt

[Sarah]

Originally Posted by SuzeQuze

Also, there is no such thing as "regular depression". You're either clinically depressed or you're not. You might have the blues or something but not actual depression. The word can be misused that way.

I don't know who you're addressing here, but I can assure you that I wouldn't claim the thing if it wasn't the case. It's not something I want, and I'm not trying to misuse the word. I don't think I said "regular depression" so you might not even be talking to me after you quoted me. But.

My particular problem is not the depression so much itself, but.. I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I view depression as another symptom of that in a way. The effing constant severe anxiety that I feel - I'd estimate - about 90% of the day, every day about any given thing, really, makes me so tired and bummy that a point comes where it's just like crashing down, and that's where the depression occurs. It's like being on a rollercoaster and not liking any part of the ride.

Like I said.. there are some things that trigger it, the death of a family member or friend, illness, money problems, etc.. but I myself don't get "the blues". I'd love it if that was simply the case. I could probably deal with the blues a little better.

I don't claim to know psychology, even though at one point I was on the path of study towards becoming a clinical therapist. But I do know what I've been treated for and how I feel, so I'm not really interested in trying to "learn about it from somebody who really has it". I feel kind of patronized by that, really.

Yuck. I hate talking about it. My anxiety is something I usually work very hard to hide. I'll just go back over here and shut up.