Would anyone like to join me...

[GateandGarden]

Originally Posted by ReFleetwoodMac

Actually, I don't think you can. I've never been able to delete threads I started. I can edit and replace with "|l|l|l|l|l|" but it's not the same. Poor poor pitiful me. I start so many threads that are so personal and private to me that I realize the next morning I am ashamed of what I did. Only to find out I can only replace it with |l|l|l|l|l|. A permanent scar is left on my posting record. Right there for anyone to see. It's like a pregnancy. Nobody can see what naughty thing you have done, but that belly will be protruding for some time. Eventually it goes away and you think "Hooray! No more belly protrusion! Nobody will have any more evidence of my shameful night of debauchery!" But then you look down and there's that slimy, dented thing staring back at you. "Oh lordy," you mutter. Looks like the evidence will be around for a while more. Time to whip out the old checkbook and buy a dumpster. Why do these things always happen to me?

Oh well. I'll wear it like an albatross. It's okay if it's a Fleetwood Mac reference.

Sorry I can't help you with the male pregnancy issue. That's beyond me.

[amber]

Originally Posted by ReFleetwoodMac

Actually, I don't think you can. I've never been able to delete threads I started. I can edit and replace with "|l|l|l|l|l|" but it's not the same. Poor poor pitiful me. I start so many threads that are so personal and private to me that I realize the next morning I am ashamed of what I did. Only to find out I can only replace it with |l|l|l|l|l|. A permanent scar is left on my posting record. Right there for anyone to see. It's like a pregnancy. Nobody can see what naughty thing you have done, but that belly will be protruding for some time. Eventually it goes away and you think "Hooray! No more belly protrusion! Nobody will have any more evidence of my shameful night of debauchery!" But then you look down and there's that slimy, dented thing staring back at you. "Oh lordy," you mutter. Looks like the evidence will be around for a while more. Time to whip out the old checkbook and buy a dumpster. Why do these things always happen to me?

You can delete threads. At least I can.

Sorry Cat and Hill. Sucks about your friends. But I have no real good friends in town. I have one, and she's kind of a good friend, but we don't really have much in common and we don't hang out much. A few other acquaintances. What's my point? Well, one - that I suck, and two - that you won't die, probably. Your life just won't be as fun. Ok? Better?

[GateandGarden]

Originally Posted by amber

You can delete threads. At least I can.

Sorry Cat and Hill. Sucks about your friends. But I have no real good friends in town. I have one, and she's kind of a good friend, but we don't really have much in common and we don't hang out much. A few other acquaintances. What's my point? Well, one - that I suck, and two - that you won't die, probably. Your life just won't be as fun. Ok? Better?

Dying would be worse. Okay, I'll go with the relativity thing.

[dissention]

Originally Posted by GateandGarden

as I down several glasses of self-pity, each with a tiny shot of self-loathing mixed in, blended to perfection, icy and with a potent sting as it creeps down the throat?

There's enough to go around.

Besides, I figure I can always delete this when I come to my senses.

I really hope you feel better soon, Hillary.

[GypsySorcerer]

Sorry to everyone who's feeling down tonight. I hope tomorrow is better.

[macfanken]

I'm here for you Hillary... I think I'll have a vodka tonic.

[Brwn_eyes0511]

Originally Posted by macfanken

I'm here for you Hillary... I think I'll have a vodka tonic.

PLEASE don't talk about vodka. The room is starting to spin again!

[GateandGarden]

Originally Posted by dissention

I really hope you feel better soon, Hillary.

Thank you Josh.

[amber]

Oh yeah. Did I say that? I meant to. Did I? I hope everyone feels better. And I don't recommend mixing the Amberita and the Hillatini. And if you have to work the next day it's better to just stick to Lux Lites.

[GateandGarden]

Originally Posted by macfanken

I'm here for you Hillary... I think I'll have a vodka tonic.

I provide an excuse for intoxication.

[Mari]

I'll toast with you guys... though I shouldn't drink while working I shouldn't drink anyway. Had one wine on saturday night which was enough to give me a headache on sunday. F - ing meds.
I was depressed last night about money problems but it doesn't compare to losing your house. I hope you'll find something, Lux, keeping my fingers crossed if it means anything.

[Johnny Stew]

I hope things turn around for the better for everyone having financial, relationship, friendship or living situation troubles.
I wish I could offer more than just "good thoughts," but unfortunately that's the best I can do from the other side of a computer screen. But the good thoughts are sincere.

{{{hugs}}}

[Mari]

Don't forget health

that's my catch 22, I guess. I've got epilepsy, doing alright now compared to 2 years ago when I was a total wreck (long story, bad meds mostly), because I know how to avoid stress and keep a decent rhythm (sleep, eating etc) most of the time.
I want to do a course so I'll have some diploma's to improve chances for another job. I'm a temp at my current job and it doesn't look like they'll offer me a contract even though they want to keep me for as long as it's possible. I want to work less hours because now, often I just don't have enough energy to do things for myself after work, but that's not possible at this job either.
Signed the forms for the course this weekend. I'm just scared if I'll be able to do it. My concentration often sucks after busy days, and I mean really sucks. It's part of the epilepsy or the meds. But if I don't try this, I'll feel stuck here.
Well anyway, wish me luck.

Eh, give me that wodka. I hate talking about the epi.

[ragandbone]

I don't think I can say anything that will help, but I have had bad times, and I know it is possible for thib s to really trun around unexpectedly.
Here is a poem, that inspires me when I feel lost.


Wild Geese
by Mary Oliver

You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting —
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.

[WelshWitchPMD]

I hope that you are feeling better Hillary and I hope that you find a place soon, Lux. That is all that I can offer.