| UndoingTheLaces |
07-28-2014 09:42 PM |
Sometimes I take a song for it's full meaning, and sometimes I interpret words in relation to what I'm going through. I find something in them that speaks to me and my situation even if that's not what the songwriter intended. Sometimes it's only a line in a song that will do that for me and Julia has one of those lines.
I would suffer for the love, I would cry to be moved
In the late 2000's I was going through a rough time. I was about to turn 40 and had never been in love. Well, that's not entirely true. I had been in love with a guy in my 20's but he was straight and even though we cared very deeply for each other it really could never be. That heartbreak launched several songs when I was singing in a band. Suffering heartache is an exquisite pain that can be a major inspiration for a songwriter. But none of the other guys I'd dated since ever got me close to that aching passion I'd had for that one guy. Julia became very special to me because that line "I would suffer for the love" was the way I was feeling. I knew I would go through it all again just to feel that amazing feeling of aching to be near someone. Thinking about them every moment when they weren't around. And basking in the glow of their love when they were around, even if it couldn't be returned. For many nights I cried and I felt that my tears were a tribute to how much I wanted to love and be loved. I would cry to be that moved and I did, often. Come 2012 and I met someone incredibly special. We're still together and it's the longest relationship I've ever had. And the feeling I felt for the guy in my 20's has been overshadowed by a love that not only burns passionately inside me, but is finally returned. And every once in a while I play Julia and I still cry because I am moved. And not a day goes by that I don't appreciate what the Universe has brought to me.
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