Random Thoughts/Express Yourself

[GardenStateGirlie]

- I hate school and i'm not even in it yet. I was waaaay ****ing older than everyone at orientation and i'm just really not feeling it as a whole. I'm going to go but i've decided if i'm not happy, i'm done. Someone said i've worked too hard to get this far--and he's right, I have--so i'll give it a chance.

- I was an asshole and stepped on my iPod. The center white button is stuck in and now I can't get it to work at all. I was too cheap to purchase the warranty so i'm going to have to go in there and do something that generally annoys me when I see it--work the feminine charm to get my own way so I won't be charged for them to fix it.

- After the whole mess with my car and the highway incident, Sunday night my dad went to go out and took my car. It started smoking in the driveway. Their car was dead out front of our house. We had to get a rental. Took the car back to Buick, turns out it was their fault. I was pissed but they fixed it for free. Knock on wood this car is golden for the next 100,000 miles because I feel like it's ALWAYS being repaired.

- Today at 3:15 PM, my neighbor Jim passed away. They moved in when I was little and I became best friends with their granddaughters on day one (they were always visiting) and became their surrogate granddaughter. He had some type of cancer and then developed Lukemia ontop of that. He had been getting blood transfusions weekly for the past several months but was still up and about doing yardwork, washing his car, etc. Two weeks ago, he and my father spent an hour outside talking--he basically said goodbye to my father because he knew he was dying. Last Wednesday, police, ambulance, EMT's etc, swarmed out front of my house at 10 am. He was rushed to the hospital where he was put in the ICU. Ironically, that same day, my father got a phone call--his real father he's never met died (he's in Italy). My father was making dinner and I heard my dog barking tonight. Heather and Traci--two of his granddaughters were starring solemned face with my dad as I came down the stairs. I just knew. I burst into tears. This is the first time i've ever seen my dad cry.

- I don't want to work tomorrow.

I think that's enough. It was good though. I feel better

[amber]

Originally Posted by GardenStateGirlie

- I hate school and i'm not even in it yet. I was waaaay ****ing older than everyone at orientation and i'm just really not feeling it as a whole. I'm going to go but i've decided if i'm not happy, i'm done. Someone said i've worked too hard to get this far--and he's right, I have--so i'll give it a chance.

- I was an asshole and stepped on my iPod. The center white button is stuck in and now I can't get it to work at all. I was too cheap to purchase the warranty so i'm going to have to go in there and do something that generally annoys me when I see it--work the feminine charm to get my own way so I won't be charged for them to fix it.

- After the whole mess with my car and the highway incident, Sunday night my dad went to go out and took my car. It started smoking in the driveway. Their car was dead out front of our house. We had to get a rental. Took the car back to Buick, turns out it was their fault. I was pissed but they fixed it for free. Knock on wood this car is golden for the next 100,000 miles because I feel like it's ALWAYS being repaired.

- Today at 3:15 PM, my neighbor Jim passed away. They moved in when I was little and I became best friends with their granddaughters on day one (they were always visiting) and became their surrogate granddaughter. He had some type of cancer and then developed Lukemia ontop of that. He had been getting blood transfusions weekly for the past several months but was still up and about doing yardwork, washing his car, etc. Two weeks ago, he and my father spent an hour outside talking--he basically said goodbye to my father because he knew he was dying. Last Wednesday, police, ambulance, EMT's etc, swarmed out front of my house at 10 am. He was rushed to the hospital where he was put in the ICU. Ironically, that same day, my father got a phone call--his real father he's never met died (he's in Italy). My father was making dinner and I heard my dog barking tonight. Heather and Traci--two of his granddaughters were starring solemned face with my dad as I came down the stairs. I just knew. I burst into tears. This is the first time i've ever seen my dad cry.

- I don't want to work tomorrow.

I think that's enough. It was good though. I feel better

You win. Sorry about all that, dear.

[golden braid]

Originally Posted by GardenStateGirlie

- I hate school and i'm not even in it yet. I was waaaay ****ing older than everyone at orientation and i'm just really not feeling it as a whole. I'm going to go but i've decided if i'm not happy, i'm done. Someone said i've worked too hard to get this far--and he's right, I have--so i'll give it a chance.

That's too bad that you're all bummed about school now. You seemed so excited about it a week ago.

A lot of times I don't want to do things or I think I won't like doing whatever and then once I get into it, it's okay. So I bet once you're in school and you're busy with that, it will all be alright. So like you said give it a chance.

[GardenStateGirlie]

Originally Posted by amber

You win. Sorry about all that, dear.

I don't want to win Thanks, hon.

[amber]

Originally Posted by GateandGarden

Do I have to?

EDIT: I have a couple of friends who have been together for about five years now and they refuse to use any of that stuff. People have tried to convince them that it's all part of it and they should try but they've told me that the idea grosses them out.Well, yeah, different stuff for people of different sexual orientations, right? Or at least I've assumed as much. I have to keep pointing out that I know nothing about all of it, really.

grosses them out? Wow. Well, what can I say? Like you said, different for different people...

[GardenStateGirlie]

Originally Posted by golden braid

That's too bad that you're all bummed about school now. You seemed so excited about it a week ago.

A lot of times I don't want to do things or I think I won't like doing whatever and then once I get into it, it's okay. So I bet once you're in school and you're busy with that, it will all be alright. So like you said give it a chance.

I actually met with my department yesterday. They suggested that instead of taking 4 COM classes first semester, we take Gen Ed's as well. Wellll...i'm transferring 60 credits. My Gen Ed's are finished. They were like, "Oh." So, here is my schedule for the fall...

COM -390-02 METHODS OF COMM RESEARCH & ANALY MR 10:00-11:20AM D Angelo, Paul A 4.00

COM -242-01 INTERPERSONAL COMMUNICATION MR 12:30-01:50PM Sims, Anntarie L 4.00

COM -273-01 CABLE & BROADCASTING IN AMERICA W 05:30-08:20PM Kline, Janice S 4.00

COM -310-02 THEORIES OF PERSUASION TF 02:00-03:20PM Woodward, Gary C 4.00

[amber]

Originally Posted by GardenStateGirlie

I actually met with my department yesterday. They suggested that instead of taking 4 COM classes first semester, we take Gen Ed's as well. Wellll...i'm transferring 60 credits. My Gen Ed's are finished. They were like, "Oh." So, here is my schedule for the fall...

COM -390-02 METHODS OF COMM RESEARCH & ANALY MR 10:00-11:20AM D Angelo, Paul A 4.00

COM -242-01 INTERPERSONAL COMMUNICATION MR 12:30-01:50PM Sims, Anntarie L 4.00

COM -273-01 CABLE & BROADCASTING IN AMERICA W 05:30-08:20PM Kline, Janice S 4.00

COM -310-02 THEORIES OF PERSUASION TF 02:00-03:20PM Woodward, Gary C 4.00

Those sound fun, in a "group project" kind of way, which I hate. But seriously, sounds interesting. Just think "after I finish this crap, I will automatically make more money!"

[CreepingDeath]

Let's see:

My bf and I fight constantly. Our relationship has always been rocky, but lately the fights have to be more intense/violet. We just moved into a new house in April, so I'm kinda stuck. Even if I could leave, I really don't have someone to stay with. I guess I could go back with my mom, but she's going through a divorce and has her own problems.

I've come to the conclusion that most of my friends are shallow assholes.

I can't make a freakin' decision about what the hell I want to do in regards to school. I've flip flopped so many times it's ridiculous.

I'm tired of looking at all the sluty billboards on the way to work. That Balley's ass needs to go. Besides the job sucks. Too many drunken high rollers trying to pinch your ass is getting old.

Alright, enough bitching.

[lagringader&r]

Originally Posted by amber

Sorry you can't sleep.
I wish I wanted to do something other than sleep...
I usually express most random thoughts anyway. Right now I'm thinking I better start packing and cleaning up my house more, as someone will be here tomorrow to take me away. Then I'm thinking that's really boring, so of course I don't want to do it. Then I'm thinking - millions of people do boring things that make their life run better every day, why is it so hard for me??? That's about it. Oh, I'm also listening to Self Control by Laura Brannigan, and thinking I really like that song. Mainly I'm just sorry you can't sleep.

Thanks. One of these days, I'll just pass out wherever I'm standing. Boring is boring (wow, that was deep.. ) so don't clean if you don't want to. Life is short and tomorrow is your birthday. Relax. Chill. Who's taking you away tomorrow and where?

[GypsySorcerer]

Originally Posted by GardenStateGirlie

I actually met with my department yesterday. They suggested that instead of taking 4 COM classes first semester, we take Gen Ed's as well. Wellll...i'm transferring 60 credits. My Gen Ed's are finished. They were like, "Oh." So, here is my schedule for the fall...

COM -390-02 METHODS OF COMM RESEARCH & ANALY MR 10:00-11:20AM D Angelo, Paul A 4.00

COM -242-01 INTERPERSONAL COMMUNICATION MR 12:30-01:50PM Sims, Anntarie L 4.00

COM -273-01 CABLE & BROADCASTING IN AMERICA W 05:30-08:20PM Kline, Janice S 4.00

COM -310-02 THEORIES OF PERSUASION TF 02:00-03:20PM Woodward, Gary C 4.00

That looks pretty good. If you ever want to bitch about com, let me know. I've been through the ringer with it.

[Miss Vicky]

Originally Posted by SteveMacD

7. Miss Vicky's handle makes me think of potato chips...mmmm, potato chips.

LOL... well, my dad does work for Frito-Lay.


Actually the name is an inside joke that has nothing to do with the Ledge.
It comes from a friend/former coworker of mine who insists that I should become a phone sex operator (I was a receptionist for four years and I sound really diff. on the phone than I do normally. I've also had clients at my old work tell me that I should work for a 900 number) and call myself "Miss Vicky."

She also always asks how much it is per minute when she calls me.

[GardenStateGirlie]

Originally Posted by GypsySorcerer

That looks pretty good. If you ever want to bitch about com, let me know. I've been through the ringer with it.

I promise to take you up on that

[amber]

Originally Posted by lagringader&r

Thanks. One of these days, I'll just pass out wherever I'm standing. Boring is boring (wow, that was deep.. ) so don't clean if you don't want to. Life is short and tomorrow is your birthday. Relax. Chill. Who's taking you away tomorrow and where?

My friend Rain - who has Stevie's birthday -
is picking me up tomorrow from Chico, where I used to live. We will go out to hear my other friend sing, then on Friday she will take me to Chico, where I will go to the River to swim (my favorite thing) and we will randomly go out to bars and go to parties and flirt with people. I am stoked to go somewhere where it is actually hot in the summer!

[lagringader&r]

Originally Posted by estranged4life

I wished I wasnt sick every frikkin' day, Now I am starting to develop nausea with the headaches...Hell, I am nauseated and dizzy at this exact moment as I type this up.

I also worry that I may find out I am physically sicker than I believe I am when I have the MRI performed very soon...Lost over 20 lbs since the day my Mother passed away (Every once in awhile I go read that thread on here, And it seems so distant a time ago, But it was only 3 months ago ), Still stressed out from awaiting the autopsy results so we can proceed with a negligent death lawsuit.

Otherwise, I trade music as usual to keep my mind (When not in pain) off of this sick thing known as my life...Thank God I have a family to vent to, I may be the youngest child at 35, But I feel much, much older mentally.

I don't want to pry and ask what's wrong, but I'm sorry you're not well and about your mother. Sounds like you have a lot of sh*t on you right now. We need a huge, gigantic hug smilie! *Imagine it right here*

[lagringader&r]

Originally Posted by amber

My friend Rain - who has Stevie's birthday -
is picking me up tomorrow from Chico, where I used to live. We will go out to hear my other friend sing, then on Friday she will take me to Chico, where I will go to the River to swim (my favorite thing) and we will randomly go out to bars and go to parties and flirt with people. I am stoked to go somewhere where it is actually hot in the summer!

Cool and I love her name! Chico is a f*cking crazy place. I've been there once. Gawd, that sounds soo good. Have fun and stay out of trouble (just kidding on that last one)