The Just Thought I'd Share Thread - Page 302

markolas · #**4516** 02-17-2011, 11:32 AM

I'm on Adderall, but only 10 mg a day. When I start working again (in 2 days, kill me now pls.) I'll probably have to up it - I'm naturally very low energy and it seems like everyone wants cocaine addicts for employees.

markolas · #**4517** 02-17-2011, 11:44 AM

Of course, if my supervisor is a See-You-Next-Tuesday, the effects of the Adderall might be canceled out by the copious amounts of Xanax I'll be popping. lol

I hope that one day I'll be able to get a job where I won't have to be heavily medicated just to be able to function. I really don't understand how people do it. I worked for a couple of piranha women from hell and in less than two years, I'd had a nervous breakdown that left me completely incapable of dealing with authority figures and mindless bureaucracy.

I don't understand how people work jobs like this for years on end without either having the IQ of a tennis ball, or being in a constant, mind-numbing benzo haze.

Nikolaj · #**4518** 02-17-2011, 01:58 PM

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Markolas, good luck with the new job. 10 mg a day is a very low dosage, I am on 40mg a day and have been for many years- the maximum 'respectable' dosage is 60 mg a day (two 30 mg pills)- I take 2 20 mg pills per day, the 2nd pill is taken about 5 hours after I take the first dosage.
I also find the 'time release' or 'Adderall XR' is not the way to go- you want it to be reliable and kick-in within 30 minutes. The Xanax you mentioned could definitely work against the adderall working- it's prescribed to me for sleep, and usually- sometimes- knocks me out fast.
10mg a day of adderall would be a tease for me, but if it's been enough for you, that's great.
I hope the job isn't a stressful one, and that no 'See You Next Tuesday' types surface instantly- though they always do eventually, somehow!
Well, congratulations on finding a new job in a tough job market, nicely done! You may even like it, a lot!

Silver Springs · #**4519** 02-17-2011, 08:00 PM

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chelluversu · #**4520** 02-17-2011, 10:44 PM

I'm going completely OD!! (DMV speak for overdoing it/doing too much) on my science fair project. I can probably post a picture of it when I'm finished, and I better get something for all this damn hard work lol (first place...please??).

I've been hella busy this school year.
Life will be peaceful again once Wednesday hits and science fair is over. If I qualify for regionals, then the ordeal is NOT over.

How I LOVE being an overachiever.

CreepingDeath · #**4521** 02-18-2011, 12:44 AM

I'm so damn depressed that I can't stand it. I've struggled with this my entire life but lately it's so much worse. I have never shared much about my private life on the Ledge since I'm a very small fish in a large pond (I've been here over ten years and most posters don't even know my name). I just had to get this off my chest tonight and didn't have anywhere else to vent.

JTIS

HomerMcvie · #**4522** 02-18-2011, 01:02 AM

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Originally Posted by CreepingDeath

I'm so damn depressed that I can't stand it. I've struggled with this my entire life but lately it's so much worse. I have never shared much about my private life on the Ledge since I'm a very small fish in a large pond (I've been here over ten years and most posters don't even know my name). I just had to get this off my chest tonight and didn't have anywhere else to vent.

JTIS

I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling depressed. While I am a pretty happy, upbeat person, I do totally understand the part about being the small fish in the large pond. About feeling invisible....
BTW, you're Kimberly, right?

Life is a series of hills and valleys, but sheer perseverance, usually allows us to find a higher ground, in this world. I hope you feel better, soon.

LikeAWillow · #**4523** 02-18-2011, 01:55 AM

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Originally Posted by CreepingDeath

I'm so damn depressed that I can't stand it. I've struggled with this my entire life but lately it's so much worse. I have never shared much about my private life on the Ledge since I'm a very small fish in a large pond (I've been here over ten years and most posters don't even know my name). I just had to get this off my chest tonight and didn't have anywhere else to vent.

JTIS

I'm really sorry you're going through this, and I hope you don't feel lost in the shuffle here; I've consistently enjoyed reading your posts since I've joined. I hope things start to turn around, and until they do, you have us.

Meowi · #**4524** 02-18-2011, 02:16 AM

My weekend has been ruined...
My shiny new House Leader wants me to come to school on Saturday for a detention. Reason why? I could not make my way to a religious service in the city. I could not make it to this event as my parents were working, and I had no means of transport.
My parents aren't letting me go - this is actually my first detention.
According to the 'rules' I'll get SUSPENDED if I do not attend this stupid detention. Jeez, some teachers have to know when they are crossing the f*&^%(& bloody line.
Please help, my ledgies.

Oh and Kimberly, We seem to get upset at the same time.

holidayroad · #**4525** 02-18-2011, 07:50 AM

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Originally Posted by Meowi

My weekend has been ruined...
My shiny new House Leader wants me to come to school on Saturday for a detention. Reason why? I could not make my way to a religious service in the city. My parents aren't letting me go - this is actually my first detention.
According to the 'rules' I'll get SUSPENDED if I do not attend this stupid detention. Jeez, some teachers have to know when they are crossing the f*&^%(& bloody line.
Please help, my ledgies.

Oh and Kimberly, We seem to get upset at the same time.

Can your parents explain to this person why you were unable to attend? It might help! I feel this person is definitely crossing a line they shouldn't be allowed to cross.

Enchanted_Stevi · #**4526** 02-18-2011, 09:19 AM

JTIS...

I'm not going to school today =\ I feel like a mushed up banana...I have a sore throat and my head hurts and I feel like butt...I know I'm not sick, maybe I'm just exhausted..between gettin up at 6:30, going to school at 9-3:30, then I worked 4-8 three days in row, then went to the gym, then stayed up til midnight...

So I just need amental health day =\

MissLadyLoki · #**4527** 02-18-2011, 09:21 AM

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Originally Posted by CreepingDeath

I'm so damn depressed that I can't stand it. I've struggled with this my entire life but lately it's so much worse. I have never shared much about my private life on the Ledge since I'm a very small fish in a large pond (I've been here over ten years and most posters don't even know my name). I just had to get this off my chest tonight and didn't have anywhere else to vent.

JTIS

I'm sorry you're feeling depressed Kimberly. I do enjoy your posts, your avatar (I love Stewie, he's my fave character on Family Guyalong with Brian), and your screen name (Creeping Death is one of my fave Metallica songs and Ride the Lightning is my second fave album, right behind Master of Puppets). I hope you feel better soon and till you do, feel free to drop a line anytime

markolas · #**4528** 02-18-2011, 11:43 AM

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Originally Posted by Nikolaj

Markolas, good luck with the new job. 10 mg a day is a very low dosage, I am on 40mg a day and have been for many years- the maximum 'respectable' dosage is 60 mg a day (two 30 mg pills)- I take 2 20 mg pills per day, the 2nd pill is taken about 5 hours after I take the first dosage.

Well, the doctor wants me to take more - like 30-40 mg, but I'm kinda scared to. There was one day when I took 30 mg and was up for 24 hours - and wasn't tired at all. Of course, I was also drinking Diet Coke all day along with it. lol Anyway, it kinda freaked me out. Do you find that you have trouble sleeping with Adderall? That's something else I'm worried about. I've always been kind of an insomniac anyway.

The Xanax was prescribed (along w/ Zoloft) for panic disorder. I don't take it too terribly often, but it does help me sleep like a baby, and nothing else really does (it even works better than Ambien, which completely lost its effect on me after about 2 weeks).

This is a seasonal job I'm working - I also did it last year, and the supervisor I had was okay, but I dunno if I'll get the same one. It's only for about 3 months, but it pays well, and I'll be able to save some $$ to pay for school. I've basically been a house-husband for the last couple of years...having a man w/ a job has been a truly wonderful thing for me.

Meowi · #**4529** 02-18-2011, 05:56 PM

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Originally Posted by holidayroad

Can your parents explain to this person why you were unable to attend? It might help! I feel this person is definitely crossing a line they shouldn't be allowed to cross.

Yeah, my parents are going to ring. As I said, my parents don't want me to go to this detention. I mean, how was I supposed to get to the city by myself at 5:00 on a sunday.

estranged4life · #**4530** 02-18-2011, 06:13 PM

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Originally Posted by CreepingDeath

I'm so damn depressed that I can't stand it. I've struggled with this my entire life but lately it's so much worse. I have never shared much about my private life on the Ledge since I'm a very small fish in a large pond (I've been here over ten years and most posters don't even know my name). I just had to get this off my chest tonight and didn't have anywhere else to vent.

JTIS

I'm still battling depression myself, and trying to not let it take complete control (Which is easier said than done). I've shared stuff on here just to be able to feel that I had some outlet to get the crap that was/is depressing me off my mind - and that someone would understand what the hell I am going through and have my back (For sympathy? No...For encouragement? Yes)

This message board has been THE only one home for me...I feel I have enough friends here who can give my guidance when I 'cannot see the trees for the forest' (Or is it the other way around)

Just hang in there and don't give into the feelings of hopelessness...Keep your mind occupied with positive thoughts and keep going forward and onward is all I can give to you as advice from one 'metalhead to another'.