I just wanted to say....

[DrummerDeanna]

Hello once again Ledgies.

Ok. So I realize that perhaps I may have gone about my "posting return" in the wrong fashion. Perhaps instead of waiting for so long - I should have voiced the opinions I voiced back when they were relevant. Timing has never been my strong suit. Be that as it may - I realize things got a little ugly - but I really was never looking to stir up a hornet's nest.

My initial post was born of frustration, sadness and anger. Just take a look at my join date - I've been here for a long time - and well I was just more frustrated than I'd ever been.

I did not mean to target any one person, if I did, or if you feel attack or targeted then I apologize for that. If anyone was offended by my post - well I apologize for that as well, I was not looking to offend.

I do stand by my beliefs but I'm big enough to apologize when I need to and I have heard that some people were hurt by what I said. I wish said people would have spoken up before things got ugly - but alas. The same has been said to me, "Why didn't I speak up earlier". I thought I could just leave and forget...

But I like the Ledge and Ledgies too much and people are right that a select few should not be allowed to ruin it for me. I didn't even take enough time to see if the people I had a problem with were still around when I posted what I did a while back.

I know I came in here more negatively than anything else - anger and frustration do that to a person. But I do believe there are wonderful and good aspects to the Ledge as well. I'm just a more pessimistic person and it's easy for me to let the bad outweight the good.

So someone telling me to simply ignore what bothers me? That doesn't work. I commend those it DOES work for - but we're all different and sadly, I am not one who easily turns a blind eye.

So I just wanted to put this out there. I was honest in my first post, angry in subsequent ones - now I'm back to being honest again.

If it's still "not fair" of me to air what I have to say - then so be it, I was so open about everything else around here - I just wanted to be open about the reasons for my hiatus

and to quote a brilliant movie...oh wait, actually it kind of sucked....but whatever...

"Be excellent to each other"

caio!