Random Thoughts/Express Yourself

[estranged4life]

Originally Posted by lagringader&r

I would try to inject some humor here in something a friend of mine said once "when life takes a piss on you, get pissed and live life". This guy never says deep ****, so this was kind of a shock. It's not really humorous as much as it's true. The thing that you're going through is bull****. You shouldn't have it. You sound like a really good guy (the perfect guy I said before), you are in love with your wife, you are killer hot, and you've had enough (losing your mom). Get pissed at this, fight it and take care of yourself, even if it means being a little selfish about it. As happy as you seem, your wife would be devastated if anything happened. For that reason alone, fight it.

fighting as best as I can, I just dont fall over and give in too much on things.

My older sister Lesa (Whom I have only known since Feb 8th of this year) has said I am the one strongest willed people she has ever known. She was shocked to learn after her return home to California that I was ill the whole time of her visit...Even when I took her to our Mother's grave I hid my ill health cause I had to be strong for Lesa, I cannot fathom how she felt to finally after 41 years of looking to be in her biological Mother's presence, But to only be in her presence as she lies for eternity in peace...She was lucky to be able to talk to Mom for the 2 months before Mom's death. And yes, Lesa (Along with my other just discovered older sister Chris) was robbed moreso than my 2 brothers and myself.

Trust me, If I could make it through the hell I have been through since the end of 2003 I should be able to make it through my health issues without incident

[estranged4life]

Originally Posted by lagringader&r

YOU ARE STRONG! Wow. You never did any of that after everything you've been through. It's with people like you, I feel so ****ing weak.

I have music on (either metal or Stevie, what a combination ) 24/7, even when I sleep (maybe that's why I don't sleep..hmm) and it does help. Are you into Symphony X? The Accolade is like 10 minutes long and is so emotionally charged, it makes me cry. Not cry in a horribly depressed kind of way, but it makes me feel in awe, exhausted and almost like I've just had amazing sex. It's that powerful. I believe music heals and can at least partially change your mood if you let it.

(Symphony X...Who are playing on the Gigantour with Megadeth/Dream Theater/Fear Factory/Nevermore/Dillinger's Escape Plan among others) and I will probably purchase some of their music very soon (Have to purchase the new Megadeth Greatest Hits disc and the newest disc by Savatage/TSO guitarist Chris Caffery entitled "W.A.R.P.E.D."...I'll be getting a personally autographed of "W.A.R.P.E.D." signed to me, How cool is that???)

Yes, Music has changed my mood more than once...Hell, I am not afraid to admit (Or am I?) that Fleetwood Mac's "Storms" has made me shed a tear or two upon a listen depending on what mood I am in.

Hell, I live for emotion music...Especially if it's of the metal/hard rock variety

[amber]

Originally Posted by estranged4life

fighting as best as I can, I just dont fall over and give in too much on things.

My older sister Lesa (Whom I have only known since Feb 8th of this year) has said I am the one strongest willed people she has ever known. She was shocked to learn after her return home to California that I was ill the whole time of her visit...Even when I took her to our Mother's grave I hid my ill health cause I had to be strong for Lesa, I cannot fathom how she felt to finally after 41 years of looking to be in her biological Mother's presence, But to only be in her presence as she lies for eternity in peace...She was lucky to be able to talk to Mom for the 2 months before Mom's death. And yes, Lesa (Along with my other just discovered older sister Chris) was robbed moreso than my 2 brothers and myself.

Trust me, If I could make it through the hell I have been through since the end of 2003 I should be able to make it through my health issues without incident

I know I did that before, but...
you inspire me.

[lagringader&r]

Originally Posted by estranged4life

fighting as best as I can, I just dont fall over and give in too much on things.

My older sister Lesa (Whom I have only known since Feb 8th of this year) has said I am the one strongest willed people she has ever known. She was shocked to learn after her return home to California that I was ill the whole time of her visit...Even when I took her to our Mother's grave I hid my ill health cause I had to be strong for Lesa, I cannot fathom how she felt to finally after 41 years of looking to be in her biological Mother's presence, But to only be in her presence as she lies for eternity in peace...She was lucky to be able to talk to Mom for the 2 months before Mom's death. And yes, Lesa (Along with my other just discovered older sister Chris) was robbed moreso than my 2 brothers and myself.

Trust me, If I could make it through the hell I have been through since the end of 2003 I should be able to make it through my health issues without incident

Yep, the next time someone tells you to go to hell, you can say "been there, done that and came out the other side, thank you very much".

[estranged4life]

Originally Posted by lagringader&r

Yep, the next time someone tells you to go to hell, you can say "been there, done that and came out the other side, thank you very much".

I usually tell 'em..."I already work there on a part-time basis, Y'all should fear if I get hired on full-time and get promoted to a higher position of authority"

[lagringader&r]

Originally Posted by estranged4life

(Symphony X...Who are playing on the Gigantour with Megadeth/Dream Theater/Fear Factory/Nevermore/Dillinger's Escape Plan among others) and I will probably purchase some of their music very soon (Have to purchase the new Megadeth Greatest Hits disc and the newest disc by Savatage/TSO guitarist Chris Caffery entitled "W.A.R.P.E.D."...I'll be getting a personally autographed of "W.A.R.P.E.D." signed to me, How cool is that???)

Yes, Music has changed my mood more than once...Hell, I am not afraid to admit (Or am I?) that Fleetwood Mac's "Storms" has made me shed a tear or two upon a listen depending on what mood I am in.

Hell, I live for emotion music...Especially if it's of the metal/hard rock variety

You are the perfect man! Storms is the whole reason I started listening to Stevie in the first place and I can't listen to it ever without crying. Her voice, the words, the music, the meaning are all so intense and personal.

How'd you swing the signed copy?

[lagringader&r]

Originally Posted by estranged4life

I usually tell 'em..."I already work there on a part-time basis, Y'all should fear if I get hired on full-time and get promoted to a higher position of authority"

Be very afraid.. Good one.

[sara1998]

Originally Posted by lagringader&r

I'm catching up which is why all my posts are back to back.

That was f*cking rude he looked you up. I guess he missed you and doesn't want to let more time go by, but he was your first love! Doesn't he know that? Or, he has what you said (an itch) and wants to bang behind his wife's back. Either way, it's a messy situation. Don't let him f*ck with your head.

No, I was his first love. My first love is deceaced. Either way, he still has an itch.

[ryan8472]

Hmm...

- I hate my job. Even though the pay is good, and it truely isn't that hard, I hate it with a passion. It's partly (ok...mostly) the people that work there.

- I've been singing the song Fall From Grace in my head forever.

- I have a huge crush on my best friend Rhys. I don't know if he sees that or not, but I just love being around him, he's a lot of fun.

- It's summer vacation, and I really ought to get out with my friends more. But Ledgies are friends too, right?

[SuzeQuze]

Originally Posted by GardenStateGirlie

You're NEVER stuck and if it's bad, it's better to jump ship now before you're married with children

As far as school is concerned, you and I are the same age--I took two years off and am about to jump back into it again but I went back and forth many many many times. It's better to make a decision later than to spend money and go to school and change your mind after you've paid and decide you don't want to be there, don't want to do it, etc.

I had to look at that bitches ass every morning in Vegas. Our room faced the Bellagio where the sign was. I want tighter buns--it made me jealous

Yes, that sign is evil to real women everywhere. No one's ass looks like that, it's all retouched. I can't imagine having to see that every day, you have my sympathies Creeping.

Also, I left my ex fiance after 8 years but I knew much sooner it was not going to work. I just kept trying to force it. That will never work. If there's violence, please just get out of there. Remember you deserve so much more.

[SuzeQuze]

Originally Posted by seeker007nmss

I just hit 40 a few months back. For some reason that is the "If it hasn't happened yet, it isn't going to happen" age for some people. Sorry, the romantic in me won't put an age limit on it.

That's great. I won't either. Hang in there. Too bad we didn't even have a chance to talk in Vegas.

[SuzeQuze]

My roommate looks like Darryl Hannah/Cameran Diaz/Gwinyth Paltrow and when I got out with her I feel invisible. And she loves going out and will be approached within a couple of minutes. Then I stand there awkwardly. This adds to my obsession with losing weight etc. We are going out tonite. Whoopie.

[Mari]

Hey, at least you're going out
Nearly all my friends (not that I have loads of them) are coupled or couples. Just isn't the same.

[eclipse]

Don't worry about your roomate and feeling invisable
You still have a light inside you that someone , that is special...can see


Beauty is for the weak-it's just added "eye candy"
What is in your heart....that is who you are...And there really and truly are people that can see and feel that inner self that you. (and all of us, for that matter) possess-Good or bad....

So, don't sweat the small stuff-

When people (men I am assuming), fawn all over her...take the opportunity to observe and really "look" at the men as they show such eagerness...a learning and teachable moment...always observe...it's free and you learn many things about people.
Perhaps, you will realize that these are men you actually wouldn't even want showing you attention... Just something to think about

ME- random thought:
I philosophize WAY too much, and can't spell

dreams~~
~~eclipse~~

[dissention]

Originally Posted by sparky

Really ?

Consider - your husband of five years and his secretary at work are going "downtown" on each other on a regular basis. You find out. Let me guess ? You forgive and forget because it "isn't really sex". Right ?