Holiday Blues

Is anyone else having a hard time getting into the christmas holiday spirit?? Sorry for being such a downer ,but I am having a really hard time feeling any ho ho ho jolly stuff this year..Mind you christmas has never been the great celebration time for me..(long story )and I seem to get depressed this time of year for ages now..But this year it seems to be hitting me extra hard..I think I am going to volunteer at a soup kitchen or something worthwhile this year..Hopefully it will put me in a better frame of mind..But I just want to go hide until the end of january..Does anyone else get like this and please share what you do ,to get through it all..