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[lagringader&r]

Originally Posted by SuzeQuze

Same. I have this one friend who I used to be really close with but she never returns emails and rarely phone calls. When we do talk its lovely but the other times are so frustrating. I have some of the best times with her but they are few and far between. I want to make some new friends but that isn't the easiest thing for me to do. I'm working on it though. I love to do things like kayak, other kinds of boating, water skiing, yet I have trouble finding companions somehow. I often feel isolated. I hate it. People are so noncomittal. I have a friend at work, I've asked him to do a number of things over the past month and he always has some excuse. I give up. I must be picking people that aren't interested in hanging otu with me or something. I don't know. Okay, I'm gettign too personal on here. Lagringa, dangerous topic for Suze!
And Curtis, I'm sorry you're sad about the ex BF. He's an idiot. Okay, I don't know what he is but if he's made you feel sad I have to say he's an idiot.

I am so happy for you that you love what you are doing. When are you moving to Boston?

That's the beauty of this thread. It's all about saying what you feel, no holds barred so there's no such thing as too personal.

I'm still catching up (only on page 3, keep getting interrupted) but I know what you mean about isolation. It's not so much that my friends don't call back - well actually, they don't. One of my biggest things is that almost all of the friends I had, used. When I got clean, everything changed. My bf still does coke and it was hell staying with him when I wasn't. I still can't believe I didn't go back to it. We broke up a little over a month ago and since then I've been almost totally isolated. I have a total of three friends who are relatively clean, meaning they get high but nothing else. I can't even get high anymore because I know I'll go back. I have a very addictive personality. So, everyone else I hung out with still do all of it. I stay in seclusion. I feel ok about it, but then I don't. I'm afraid to be alone and afraid to go out. So, yep, when I call them, they don't always call back. I'm not *cool* or *fun* anymore to them because I don't party the way I used to. It's real hard not to get your feelings hurt. I do know what you mean. It's not an identical situation, but the end result is the same. Ok, now I'm getting personal.