Your in my head but why?

[amber]

Originally Posted by GateandGarden

Hey 1/2 Insane,

(If I knew your real name I would call you that, since I'm sure it's kinder ).

I found your post very interesing. A lot of what interests you interests me as well, yet I still don't know exactly how to respond to it. But I'll try.

I often wonder if the people around here are like they are in real life. In some ways, I'm not. I'm much more shy and loath to express how I feel in real life, unless I'm with very close friends or family. When I can write to people and I don't have to look them in the eye, I tend to be more honest, and I'm much more capable of debating/arguing. I almost always shy away from that in real life. But you can look at it another way--I am more myself on these message boards, because I am not nearly as afraid to speak my mind. But I am also more open to people in real life because I refuse to share certain things on the Internet, such as photos of myself and information about where I live (beyond Louisiana I don't narrow it down more than that). Sometimes I think I come off as too vocal and blatantly honest, and I often wonder if others who could also be perceived that way are being that way only because this board is an outlet, and its sometimes their places to vent as well.

I came here because I love Stevie and Fleetwood Mac, and because I heard all kinds of interesting things about this board when I started posting on the BuckinghamNicks and Legboards. Everyone made this place sound fun. I found that it was even better for me when I found out how liberal so many of the people are. So, this place has become more than a place to talk about my favorite band--it's a place of comfort. I can't even go to a public bathroom at my university without seeing "Kerry is Evil--He's 4 the Fags" scribbled on the walls. I'm surrounded by hateful, ignorant people, and I come here and realize that the whole world isn't like that. And I know that there are people here going through what I'm going through who can understand. It's a wonderful feeling.

And I was very interested in your comment about being attracted to certain people on the board. I doubt I know exactly what you mean, but I've found myself drawn to people on message boards for the couple of years I've been active on message boards in general. It's amazing how some of these people get me through the day, and I find myself thinking about them when I'm not on the board. I think I would like to meet some of them because I really appreciate and understand many of the things they say. I often find myself wondering what people look like and trying to picture them. But I feel that it's a little hypocritical in a way, since I don't want to post pictures of myself, and I just don't think of it as appropriate to meet people I talk to online, regardles of what kind of relationship I'm after. (I guess that's the traditional side of me coming out). Compared to real life relationships, these are quite superficial, yet, at the same time, the people on these message boards have the power to make my day much brighter when things have gone wrong.

Hillary

I know you weren't talking to me, but...awww, you're so sweet...and i don't think anyone thinks you're too opinionated, or whatever...but look who's talking! I just always thought you were sweet...