They didn't look happy

[Penguin Emeritus]

Originally Posted by Macfan4life

I remember an interview in 1994 right after the earthquake where she said it really wrecked her with fear. I am paraphrasing but I think that was when she could not wait to get back home. The death of her father was tough even though it had been years. Her mother died young so her dad was there and was majorly into music. I think she said something that her English roots were calling her home and she wanted no more of LA, California, touring, etc.
For her to tell Mick NO for the first time in her life over a month of European dates really shows how reluctant she may have been all along. Of course its fun to get back with your band and play gigs. But suddenly she's living out of a suitcase and flying around again and drinking. She said during the 1990 tour she would drink a bottle of wine every night so she could sleep. But then she woke up hung over and it was not fun especially with her dad passing in the middle of that tour.

Yes i think i read also that she hated that earthquake, and john said the same in the Destiny Rules documentary. and i totally get the insomnia thing, that is a nightmare for those of us who cannot just lay down in a strange bed and immediately knock out lol. And that didn't do her drinking issues any favors. i wonder how that played out once she returned to the band... she was trying to be better but I'm sure she needed *something* to help her sleep. I think the band paused the 1990 tour so she could be with her dad when he was near the end, didn't they? I thought they cancelled a few shows? I can't remember now. and she seemed to adore her father, i heard from a few of his former students that he used to talk about her and her career sometimes in class, he was so proud of her, and he'd tell them when he was flying over to see her in LA. He did live a good long life though...wasn't he about 90? That's a ripe old age.

Anyway, i know she really wanted to be done by the time she told Mick 'no' in 98, i just see it as interesting that she didn't publicly really tell the truth about probably the biggest reason why. Instead, she used the fear of flying, the earthquake, the insomnia, the Kent house, the loss of dad/wanting to be near family etc. Not that those weren't all valid reasons, but it still makes me wonder if she might have made difference choices had Ed not been in the picture pushing her.


--Lis