Bullying in Schools

[bellagypsy79]

PARDON MY LANGUAGE ON THIS POSTING!

My name is Jacquelyn Hamby and I was a victim of bullying from 5th to 12th grade. With this whole bullying **** that's going on today...it needs to stop. It breaks my heart that everytime I turn on the news or see the latest people magazine that it makes me cry. I survived this **** and so can they. I want to be a speaker and travel from school to school to talk to kids about my experiences with this and how I survived it. Greg tells me to get over it...yeah you may very well be over it, but every now and then it comes back to haunt you and you sit around wondering what you could've done differently or should have done differently. Bullys scar you for life. If you kill yourself because you can't take anymore, they win! Do you really want them to win!? NO! You are the better one and you know it. Bullys pick on the innocent because they want to impress friends, or they're jelous. They can give you that sob story saying they came from a bad family **** all they want but if you are being bullied by your parents and you don't like it then why are you doing it to others? Greg came from a bad family and he doesn't bully other people. That's no excuse. I'm sorry, but I don't think that's any excuse to get away with it.



The kids I went to Parkway South with bullied me more than the ones at St.Pauls did. St.Pauls was more teasing than bullying. South, was a different story. I got pushed down the stairs, candy and gum stuck in my hair, bad profanity writen on my locker (by someone I know who did it, I'm just not revealing any names on here), rumours spread about me that weren't true, laser pointers pointed at me and kids laughing, people telling the people that I was friends with that I was a threat to them when I didn't even know how to kill a fly, (which was also started by that same person who wrote the profanity on my locker), pushed against walls for stuff I didn't do wrong...and these kids who did this were not the ones in my graduating class, they were in classes below me! These stupid assholes didn't even know me and I was a target because they wanted to test me. And when they could see that I could fight back they didn't mess with me again, but when I did fight back at times it would be worse and all my teachers would say to me was "Go to your counselor." I spent more time sitting in the counseling office or computer lab than going to class because teachers would excuse me from them. They didn't know how to handle it. Hell, I would have to have bodyguards escort me to my classes on somedays because I was being threatened on a constant basis.



Still to this day, every so often, I get flash backs on things that happened to me and I am glad that I didn't let them break me. But I wish I knew then what I know now on what to say and do to stick up for myself. Jesus tells us to forgive our enemies. I try to everyday, with not just people from my past in school, but with friends that abandoned the friendship I had with them for no ****ing reason at all, and customers that I deal with at work everyday and co workers even the asshole that cuts you off in traffic. It's easy to forgive the little things, but it's very hard to forget them because they leave you scared for a while and it's up to you when you want to let those wounds heal. I want them to go away believe me I do. Sometimes I wish for appologies from them all, but it won't happen I know that. I think the only way that can help make it go away is to help other kids who are having the same problem I had and try to help them through it. Not only would I feel better but I think it would help them feel better too. I am tired of being haunted by the bad in my past. I wish for it to end! The friends who abandoned my friendship with them over something stupid that I didn't do anything wrong, (but still won't get some balls and tell me what I did wrong...)**** YOU ALL! I am done with your drama. To the kids who made me feel like nothing and treated me like **** in school, **** YOU TOO! I'm done with thinking about you! Your are not worth my time and if your husbands or children found out that you were bullys in school, God help them!



Excuse my language, but sometimes you just have to scream it. I was even at times bullied by my first stepmom. I was a nothing to her. She saw me the way those damn kids I went to school with did...an insect that must be squashed quickly, even if the insect wasn't bothering you or going near you, it was still in your way, and it annoyed you. I will not go into specifics on this one but she scared me too. The biggest regret of all was not standing up for myself enough, especially to her. I was just scarred. When I stood up for myself at school to this girl who pushed me into a vending machine, I kicked her right in the ass! I told her to leave me alone and she did. I ran into the bathroom and threw up. I think grandma Betty was watching out for me that day. I think she kick my leg up. Beause it certanly wasn't me. LOL!



I hate bullys and they must be stopped. I want to help these kids who are crying out for help. I just want this to end. Parents and teachers can make a difference, I think everyone can! Everyone is different and special in their own way. It's never going to be a perfect world. No one is perfect. Keep opinions to yourself and your jelousy in hiding. Jelousy doesn't get you anywhere. "What does not kill us makes us stronger", that's what a wise man said. Take that with you. Something can be done with this. I can't bare to see another child kill themselves. If you kill yourself, they will win. That's what they want you to do. Don't let them win, keep fighting, because you are beautiful, special and too damn importaint to too many people around you.

My name is Jacquelyn Hamby and I DEFFINATLEY APPOVE THIS MESSAGE! SPREAD LOVE, NOT HATE. Thank you for reading.

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