I passed up a doughnut.

[DrummerDeanna]

Do you know how hard it is for someone with food issues to say no to a big plate full of beautiful doughnuts? It's really f**king hard.

It's not just that I like to eat, my sister and I both have actual problems with food. So no jibes, please, about how I don't know how to eat healthy on my own, or that I'm a moron, it's a realy issue and I hate it.

I realize that I am, in fact, VERY lucky to not weigh more than I do. The way I've eaten in the past - I should be well over 200 pounds. I think the saving factor is that I don't lead a sedentary life, and up until about two years ago I was an AVID gym goer - I mean I was fierce...so I was able to eat like a pig - and maintain an OK weight. I've never been skinny -and never will be.

Anyway - it's truly one of the hardest things to do just to say no to a stupid doughnut - and I hate that I have these food issues, I hate that it's SUCH an obsession with me.

I'm starting to think some of my co-workers are food-pushers, which I hate.

We had ice-cream cake last week (which thankfullY I don't like all that much - but in the past I would have eaten it anyway). Anyway - I said no and got all sorts of pressure for not eating any ice cream cake. I finally lied and told everyone I was lactose intolerant. Great - so now do I have to be lactose intolerant for my tenure at this station?

Anyway - food issues really really suck.