Obsession questions

[lagringader&r]

Thank gawd I'm not the only one. I was thinking today that I can't think of one day that goes by that I don't think about Stevie. I started to wonder if that was unhealthy and thought about starting to wean myself off but then that made me feel nervous and I thought OH NO. I'm obsessed. I've been addicted to much worse things so I can tell myself that this one isn't going to blow a hole through my nose or make me broke (ok maybe the last one is still possible). I don't come here for a few days and I can do that but then I start needing to come. But even when I'm not reading or looking up Stevie stuff, I'm thinking about her. Listening to her calms me when I'm really upset and sometimes just looking at her on a dvd mellows me out. When I talk about her, it's always something I don't mean to say. Like somebody will say something about candles and I think of Stevie and will say something like "Stevie loves candles". I get a lot of really weird and irritated looks coz I can relate a lot of things back to what I know about her. I know I couldn't go up to her door if I went by her house but I might sit outside and just stare for a few minutes thinking "Stevie lives in there." Yep, I'm far gone. I'm glad I'm not alone tho coz I'm a little freaked out by the effect she's had on my life. It's not bad but it's huge.