~~~~i touched her~~~~

[Oona]

I write this but minutes after getting home from the show. After reading the threads from folks that have shook her hand and tried to be happy for them, i confess i felt somewhat resentful. I feel somewhat guilty that I cannot be happy for others who were so fortunate, but such is such. I hope you all do not think less of me for feeling it. That being said, I hope I am somewhat redeemed in your eyes for admitting it. Tonight was different. It was my time, my chance.....I had to take it or forever regret it. I went past the ropes when she glided by (very out of character for me to be so aggressive) walked up to the stage, handed her my box of incenses and one of my hand made glass beads from my right hand, offered my left hand. Stevie took both. It was the most indescribable feeling to look her in the eyes. It was like my entire brain hiccupped and my viscera liquified. All bodily functions were back-burnered for that instant. The heart seemed to stop, breathing stopped, brain activity went into delta waves. I was a vegatable....perhaps a carrot, or i could have been a beet, who knows. It is always a ticklish feeling to be close to her. It seems the atoms in my body spin a bit differently, but to make eye contact, and even physical contact and to be acknowledged is overwhelming to me. I can say all this here without most of you thinking I am somewhat pathological....unlike with most folks. Also do consider that this is being written after a few shots of Slivovitz, so what I have written takes on the characteristics of this histrionic drink. I truly believe this is the forum in which what I have said will be understood and not worried about. nonetheless, I still reluctantly hit the "submit new thread button".



for anyone that took the time to read this entire thing, I deeply and sincerely thank you.

ps...i will be at the holmdale show...u can spot me in a bright orange bandana and an earthy toned dyed shirt.

to all.....be well