I am the youngest of five kids (the oldest being 14 years older than me) and I'm the only one to graduate college. Two of my brothers didn't even finish high school. I've always been there for my family and held them in the highest regard, never judging their choices in life. Rather I've considered us all individuals with our own unique paths of life, each of us following our own destiny. However I learned today that all four of them resent me for some reason. They believe I had a much better life than them and was given some great opportunity they never had. I don't understand tho. I worked full-time while going to school, and neither of my parents gave me a dime for school. I was the one left footing the $50,000 bill all by myself. I was the one in class every day. I was the one studying all night long in order to pass. I worked hard to get where I am, yet they all seem to disregard it as luck and blame me for their problems. It reminds me of a line in the TV show Damages: "You try to lead by example and they want you to lead and then they resent you for it. They put you on a pedestal, look up to you and then blame you for the crick in their necks." Anyone else relate?
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-John
You are allowed to feel messed up and inside out. It doesn't mean you're defective - it just means you're human.
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