[nailatixela]

Sorry you're feel that way Artemis. Don't think of it as lying to her. You're just protecting yourself right now. If she is a true friend, then she will understand. Does she want a relationship with you, or just want one for you? Don't think about the what if's....a true friend won't tell if you ask. she won't judge you. you sound really close to her....if you feel safe, do what you think is best. Good luck.