JTIS; I'm a little drunk and very emotional right now, but I have absolutely no where else to turn to, so I'm gonna pour my heart out here. I don't mean to be an attention seeker or anything, so I'm really sorry if this comes off that wat, but I'm sitting here, in my friend's spare room, really trying not to cry. Basically. I've had a wonderful day and night with my friend, and we've spent hours just talking. Problem is. She still thinks I'm straight, and she was banging on about how lovely I am and how I deserve a nice realtionship since my last one was a disaster. She was so sincere and she really cares for me, that it's actually killing me to carry on lying to her. I want to come out to her, I've knowj her for likw, 9 years, but I"m ridiculously scared. What if she doesn't accept me? What if she tells my other friends and they shun me? What if they tell my paretns? My dad would kick me out' he's very much a 'man's man' and isn't tolerant, at all. I'm really sorry for ventinng on here, guys, but I just don't know what to do anymore. The only friend -l?e ever been out to and been 100% myself with, has totally abandoned me, so I"m totally and utterly panicked. I'm literally shaking as I type this.
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