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Originally Posted by daniellaaarisen

I hate people. I'm going to say this with the least amount of swearing possible.

A girl that I was really close with for 5 years just messaged me asking to “catch up” after we didn’t talk all year. I defriended her on Facebook quite some time ago. I haven’t spoken to her because she’s absolutely crazy… multiple drug addictions (coke being the most serious), 3 DUIs, numerous eating disorders… all before her 17th birthday. Worst of all, she would CONSTANTLY throw me under the bus to save her own ass, even if I didn't do anything. For instance-- I was DDing a friend home from San Francisco and she wanted to stop by this girl's house, so we did and said hello. This girl told her parents that I had drunkenly driven to their house and I get a text from her mom the next day saying, "if I ever hear that you're driving drunk around my daughter again, I'll call the police." Her mom is a whole different set of crazy ,but I digress...

So I kindly explained that I didn’t have any interest in talking to her but I genuinely hoped she was doing well. Her response?

“Sad to hear you’re still a judgmental fatass.”

a) Bitch, f*ck you.
b) I judge YOU after knowing you for years, after waking up at 4AM to save your ass from juvi, after watching you sabotage your own life time after time after time.
c) I’m extremely, extremely sensitive about the weight thing especially since I had an eating disorder quite some time ago… again, f*ck you.

Seriously I want to stab her right now. I've been having a really rough time with my self-image lately for a variety of reasons and this just made me want to revert back to my "old ways." It's hard enough to balance the line between healthy and unhealthy lifestyle changes when you've known the unhealthy side... I didn't need this too.

Jesus.

*hugs*
Danielle, you are beautiful and I hope she didn't make you feel anything less. It's definitely a sign of good mental hygiene that your initial response to her message was tell her to scr*w off (in the nicest way possible), but I completely understand how one negative comment can wound. Stay strong