[Silver Springs]

Originally Posted by ButterCookie

Annie's right I have no room to talk but bottling it up is not good. I turned to the internet to get me through my mum and dad's divorce, two friends dying and the likes and now I'm at a stage where I only wake up in a morning to see Debbie Harry's face and make sure she's okay, the Blondie gig the night before went well etc etc. I don't want to think that anyone else is feeling like I am because it upsets me, no matter who they are. I'm not expecting you to trust me straight away because that could be considered weird but if you want to PM me, I'm more than likely to always be here for a chat, college has installed free wi-fi for errywun now so I'll still be on through the day

Originally Posted by Zombie

I understand. If I'm being completely honest, I never really thought my habit of packing everything away like I do was a problem until pretty recently. Before, I'd looked at it like, "Well, hey - at least I'm not dragging around all depressed and brooding." I mean, I get happy and I get sad and junk, but in general, I'm so even-tempered, I might as well be Commander Data.

But then my mother died at the beginning of the year. My relationship with her was complicated (to say the least - she was a raging alcoholic & cuddly like Hannibal Lecter and I had to go into foster care in my early teens), but I'd packed her into a box, as it were, a long time ago. And then all of a sudden - KABLAM! I am rattling around everywhere like a Wacky Waving Inflatable Arm Flailing Tube Man.

So now I'm working on working through my issue there. I have no idea how to do it or if there is a proper way to go about it, but we'll see how it goes. And if you ever need an ear, I'm here - no risk, 'cos everyone knows that people on the Internet aren't real.

It means alot that there are people on here who can relate and understand. The offer comes right back at'cha both because I'm told that, although I'm a failure at taking my own advice, I am a pretty decent Agony Aunt *Dons white bobby hairdo and a knitting kit for the role*. Thank you for listening to my small and brief belly aches. Hearing your own problems helps put mine into perspective some. Thought the numbness is still ever present, it's helping to see that I'm not alone as I tend to feel in my "real life" setting. I'm sorry you two, daniellaaarisen and anybody else I could care to mention are having such hard times. Guess it's times like this that it really helps to be in this kind of setting with "cyber-people" where we can all pool our feelings and advice. *ish going to treat herself to a well earned evening of pampering, Ice Cream (no chocolate because Bees don't like Chocolate) and a new DVD (Destiny Rules dropped onto my mat this morning. Yayness*.