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Originally Posted by Lala
Personally this song means so much to me. As I've mentioned in previous threads, I went through some kind of dramatic events in teens. The first time I heard Love Is, I was just beginning to see the other side of things.
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I feel the exact same way about it. I have a very specific memory of this song that only Ledgies would appreciate.
To make a very, very long story very short... the years of 2004 and 2005 were absolute hell for me. In early January of 2005, I was twelve years old. I lived in a foster home from mid-January 2005 to August 2005. My plane from SFO to Oregon (my new home) took off at 5AM, just before the sun rose. I remember being totally and uncontrollably numb to the situation-- driving with a social worker to the airport while staring out the window blankly, handing an older woman my boarding pass blankly. Then, we finally got on the plane and I sat down with my iPod. I scrolled through it with absolutely no idea what I wanted to listen to-- I didn't want to listen to anything. I hadn't listened to Trouble in Shangri-La for quite some time, but "Love Is" popped out to my eye and I started playing it while the plane took off.
I completely lost it-- I probably hadn't cried in two or three years and once I started, I could not stop. The sun rose as our plane left the ground and I played "Love Is" on repeat for the duration of the trip. Although I played the song to have something mellow to listen to and therefore n0t shake me from my stoic state, I ended up listening to the words--
actually listening-- for the first time in my life.
The timing was perfect. In that plane ride, I realized that it was never that my parents didn't love me or that I didn't love them-- it was quite the opposite. Everything that happened in 2004 tore us apart day in and day out because of the resounding love that we
did feel at the end of the day. No one left the situation unscathed, and I just happened to get the brunt of it. I never really realized the mutuality of the pain until that moment-- I had just been the person with enough pain to walk away. It was the most overwhelming and phenomenal realization I think I have ever had in my life. Certain parts of "Love Is" have been my mantra regarding my parents since that:
Love is knowing you won't let go
Love is letting go.
Am I happy?
Yes I am
Do I know you love me now?
Yes I do
Do I know I cannot stay
I know...
all about love.
I'm not one to usually run around with my life story stamped on my forehead, but this story just kinda goes to show how powerfully Stevie has influenced my life-- both in the more technical ways (my writing) and the purely emotional. Only Ledgies would ever get it
