man...I understand you 100%. I have been (or I am, does time matter?) through a relationship like this and I can figure out what you're telling.
I don't think there's room here for guilty. It's a feeling you can't help and plus, we are talking about an ill person who deserves all the love, caring and atention of the world.
I agree with DigYourGrave. You need tons of tusk. Also Go Insane, Wild Heart, Rock a Little, tango in the night and out of the cradle, I think.
Storms is a good option, as well as beautiful child, play in the rain, no spoken world, rock a little, wild heart, nothing ever changes, trouble, you and I part IandII, when I see you again, alice, battle of the dragon, joan of arch, talk to me, loving cup, say we'll meet again, etc etc...
I hope everything will be ok. Don't be afraid of spending time with her, or letting your feelings show. It's better to regret something you did that something you could have done but you didn't dare.
