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Old 09-19-2008, 11:25 PM
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Originally Posted by ajmccarrell View Post
Okay, well that explains that. I apologize to try to cool the situation down because at times it clearly gets out of control, not because I feel particularly bad. I am typically sitting here grumbing about stupid people in the world.

Grandiosity is a problem. I have a big ego and I know that. You may notice that people who become doctors, lawyers, businessmen, etc do have a tendency towards narcissism, otherwise they wouldn't do what they do. Same thing here, I've always been an overachiever. However it is made worse because people challenge things such as my intelligence, qualifications, station in life and even my sanity because I disagree. You'd see a lot less of it if you would just assume that I'm not lying. I'll tell you a little something that might put it in perspective for you. I think I've mentioned before that my mom had been married about 6 times. During the divorce from my actual father, she claimed that I was "special needs" during the divorce because I had been molested, for the sole purpose of collecting more child support. So, for a while I grew up thinking that was actually the case, and I found out later that it was all just a tactic. So there was a little munchausen's going on there, so when people call me stupid or crazy, etc, it brings up a little bit more of the resentment and anger I felt at having been lied to and how inadequate I felt in being "the handicapped kid", when it turns out it was all a scam so that my mom didn't have to get a job. Trying so hard to accomplish things in life (IE music, a masters degree, being successful, for a while dating the prettiest girls I could find, etc.) in a very short period of time was my way of overcoming some of the feelings of inadequacy that I grew up feeling. So, I gave you a huge vulnerable spot here, so don't misuse it okay? You might find that I'm actually a very nice guy, if not still very arrogant, if we'd stop screaming at one another. I do actually think I'm always right.
Well this does help explain some things but until you overcome that always thinking your're right you will continue to have problems interacting with others.
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