Thanks for spellin' it out for me, there, bucko.
The only thing I'd have to say in response is that by random, I meant various other introspectives like.. dream interpretations, auras, all kinds of stuff.. in addition to the charts. The charts themselves are the ones that I say I find complex, just from the way they're plotted.
I've had mine "generated" a few times by whatever various resources there are on the web. And it covers such a wide range. Like, there's a combination of every trait: true, not true, like, don't like. So it is kind of sketchy to me in a way.. to think about it like.. how sturdy is it, scientifically, when only likely 25 to 50 percent of those things are applied. It's like, if I punch in the exact moment that I was born, in the exact spot... if it was going to pop up some miraculous tale of how I turned out to be me, then like, the whole damn chart should apply. Or does that make me a realist?
No seriously. I understand exactly what you're saying, and I find it to be incredibly intriguing, regardless of whether i decide to "believe in it" or not. i'm not in denial of my faults at all, that's one thing i can tell you for sure. it's like, i hold change (transition, not dimes and quarters) so dear. i really don't want to see a day where i'm perfectly content to be just how i am. there are lots of people satisfied with good enough... i get bored without the search for better. but, that comes out of all the issues that i have as well, so i can't really say i would relate to someone in a perfectly peachy keen living/self-acceptance situation, either.
I don't know. That's one of those types of feelings that you feel somewhere well below your heart and well above your mind, and you don't typically find yourself in a situation to express it with words.