[Sarah]

I am the biggest ball of anxiety in the world. Everybody always thinks I'm so relaxed all the time or whatever because I'm like.. laid back, but it's really just because I'm so physically worn out from the emotional hell I put myself through. I guess that's why it's never really mattered that much to me about what other people think about how I am, the things I say, or the things that I do.

I've been prescribed everything under the sun. None of that **** works except for valium sometimes, and talking about it with a dr. only makes me feel 100,000 times worse. I guess it's that whole feeling broken thing, and I don't like to open up anyway. I mean, I'll tell anybody that I'm crazy, just not why.

On really bad days, I write journal/essay entries. That helps then.. but otherwise, I guess it's just something to suffer through. Nod and smile.

Are there certain triggers.. like driving.. that cause your panic attacks, or is it just anything? I fall into the anything category. There's no one particular thing that stresses me out.. it's just the combination of everything.