well, assuming that everyone's a sinner, if it were true that 1 sin = eternal damnation, we'd all burn in hell. but from what i've come to understand, God "wants" us to be with him.. (so he can play with us like barbies and army men, i guess).. and it's supposed to be pretty easy to get into the good place. streets of gold and all that.. i don't know. i don't want to burn in a fiery pit of unpleasantness and be suspended on hooks through the skin on my back, that's for sure... but i'm not going to kiss bible beater ass and work on convincing a bunch of mortals that i'm acceptable in God's house, just so they can pass me the plate to put my $ in. thanks but no thanks on the church service each week. i live in the south and this is a small town.. so i have to check that crap at the door, because it's all fake around here.
i like the idea of being reunited with lost loved ones.. but honestly, it's hard for me to believe that anything happens after you die. i guess i believe in god.. but not because i've been touched.. more or less because i've been guilted into believing my entire life.
sounds bad coming from a preacher's granddaughter. i hope my grandfather's soul has been blessed and that he actually IS in heaven, because he was the most kind, gentle, and happy person on earth, period.. and thoughts of seeing him and my grandma again are the ONLY things keeping the shred of belief that i struggle to maintain.
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Yup. I'm in hell.
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