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Brian- I want to share something with you...and everyone on here. I guess as hard as it is to lose someone that you love- I have honestly come to the conclusion that when your time is up it's up. Whether you are in an airline crash, car accident, or surgery, or just sitting in a chair on a sunny day. I don't know if that is fatalistic, but it helps me to make sense of senseless deaths- I just think if your Mom hadn't been where she was that day and she was someplace else, she still would have died because it was her time.

For example. I read in the paper this terrible story about how a few women went out partying- got buzzed- knew better than to drive home so they called a cab. Cab picks them up, (cab driver is another woman who is 7 months pregnant), they start their journey and some idiot-drunk-loser- runs through a stop sign Hits the cab- kills one of the passengers intantly, Breaks the Cabbie's pelvis-emergency c-section for the baby- Baby dies, two other people in the cab are in the hospital; with life threating injuries..... It makes no sense, and it is so very sad.
I have always believed that things happen to us for a reason, and although we can't see the reason until much later...there is actually some sense to it.

I was so sad when I lost my Dad, heartbroken felt like he should have lived for a lot longer, but he didn't. However, because of his death, my Mom and I have become much closer``which more than likely would not have happened had he not died`` With his passing he brought us closer -
I don't know if I am explaining thsi correctly but all I am trying to say is that you have to keep going, your Mom would have wanted that and you know that.
Brian, your time is not here yet, it could be in a year or it could be in 30 years but when your number is up- it's up. So live every day that you are here--and be sad because your Mom is gone, but please...stay strong!
hugs,
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