"The Holidays" have always been a little hard for me, but now with Dad gone, I'm not sure how I'll get thru it. This is my first year without him, and my whole life is completely different. He was in the hospital last year at this time, and while "not here" was still here, you know? We held everything for him, but he never came home. There are still unopened gifts at my Mom's house. I wish I had an answer on how to make it better, but I'm still unsure myself. I suppose (like everything else), I'll hit it head on, and see what happens. Maybe the fear of it is worse than the reality. And I apologize if i've been talking about Dad a lot lately...I guess this is the time of year when all the heavy reminders come....
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Raevenskye....threadkiller since 2005.
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