Thanks !! Your right .helping some one does make you feel so much better.and I am going to go to town today and see what I can do to make a difference..I am just having such a really hard time ,,I dont; even want to decorate..and I love doing that..usually..Last year we did not celebrate xmas as there was a death in the family too..and this year we decided we are not going to exchange gifts..which is ok with me..as I am still paying my daughters wedding off..lol..but I don;t know..I can;t seem to shake this gloom..ARGHH..I;m usually the upbeat get everyone in happy mood person..lol..I just want to SCREAM>>>lol ...Hopefully I can shake it off soon.