I am very single....I would be alone in my room, except that my computer is in the living room....and I have a roommate to keep me company (when his nose isn't in a book).
I ended my last relationship back in February 2002. Sometimes I forget why I did it, and yes, I'm lonely from time to time. Between 18 & 28, I had three long term relationships, each lasted about three years - give or take a few months here and there. By the age of 28, I had decided that I had had enough of it all. I dumped my guy, gracefully and compassionately, and have been on my own ever since. I'll lie and say it's nice to be single....though I sometimes wish I weren't so alone. I will admit to having small moments of sadness when I see other couples who are obviously happy....cause I miss that... But, I just remind myself that it was I who wanted to be alone, I who needed to grow into myself, and I who felt like I needed to discover what was 'out there' and what my place in the world is - and what I wanted from it. After three years....nothing has changed really....except that I'm stronger emotionally, and I work more.
Sometimes, I hear Stevie sing that lyric from Doing The Best That I Can....and I flinch a little, 'cause it's me...."she thought she was out there, but nobody saw...."
I'm not looking for a partner...I'm not dating anyone....I only want to do the 'relationship thing'
once more....so it better be right....but when he finds me, I'll know.
