I guess a little history is in order. I had a fantastic childhood - the things people dream of really. My parents are great people and I was very fortunate that they really took me all over the world with them. That may be why I am very comfortable in most settings. Around my 20's, I did musical theatre and some modelling. I loved the former and really did not care for the latter, though the latter lasted longer and paid a whole lot better than my illustrious acting career, which apparently I alone thought I was good at
In the middle of all of that, I got my law degree, which was really because my parents thought it was a good thing to get. I like practicing law, so its cool. But, I liked singing "there's a bright golden haze on the meadow" to a crowded house who adored me a whole helluva lot better
Then, I dated someone for a very long time. But, now we have sort of a LB - SN relationship, which is cool because we had, to paraphrase Stevie, barriers of time and other forms really prohibit us from being together. Depressing as it can be - Such is life - but in that - I guess really those (few have done all of that)- lifetimes, I learned about walls and how to make people want me. But, now that I do not have the guise of youth and my 195 pound body (though I am working back to it) - I have to rely more on me, which is cool, but harder. So, I guess what I am trying to say is, you are not alone in what you are going through and sometimes life just does not work out the way we want it to.
I hope that did not sound to "me me me - its all about me"
