The NKOTB hold a very terrible memory for me.
In 5th grade, I went to a new school. I had gone from a secular school to a very private Christian school. The kids had money and they didn't curse and went to church etc. This was soon after my father died and I didn't know which way was up. I just knew I was poor, and that I was very new to this Christian world I was thrown in.
I just knew I wanted to be accepted SO bad.
By the summer of 5th going into 6th, I had caught one of the most popular, Lorin. Lorin was so pretty and very rich we talked every single day on the phone about boys. I was there when she got her "friend" the first time, we had a bond! We were so close all summer and it made me excited for the new school year.
So --6th grade started and I thought I had a new best friend. NOT.
Vanessa and Katie were new to my class and HUGE NKOTB fans. They sucked boy crazy Lorin into it and they all became fast best friends. They were always together and I was NOT included.
I didn't really like the music first of all, but I wasn't allowed to listen to anything other than Christian music...according to my mom. She was a very new Christian and her rules were so harsh.
So I was alienated and alone. I didn't fit in with anyone. Plus, ALL the girls seemed to have gotten their "friend" and I hadn't for some reason ( though I was taller and developed)
I spent the year crying about grades and feeling so alone and getting over losing my first boyfriend ( he wrote a note and went out with blonde Amber all year)
This was 1990. It is 2004. I still remember this pain like it was yesterday! 6th grade was tough and the NKOTB made it hell.
This is SOOOOOOOOO personal but oh well right. Is that embarrasing enough for you??
