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Originally Posted by vivfox
I love that ketchup expression. It's very creative. I'll use that sometime in the future.
You have a dark side?
Sorry you are going through so much anguish. Time heals all wounds.
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Well, my heart was completely broken. I'm not a "depressed person", YET I have been, so far this year. I lost the love of my life. And the love of my life doesn't even want to get back together(yet?, I can only hope - why would you text your ex, to tell them that you got dumped???), but I can tell you that my mood for the year, went from ZERO, to about a 4, now, just from knowing that they broke up. Especially knowing that the guy who replaced me, was the dumper.
And I'm not proud of the fact that I'm so happy that they're done. But I am. Because I now have HOPE. I sort of consider that to be a dark thing. The thought of them riding off into the sunset, made me completely nauseous. While never suicidal, I really had no reason for wanting to live, from Jan 2nd until now....if that sounds melodramatic, that's not my intention, but it's honestly how I felt. 2012 - my Sh*t sandwich year. Seriously. I've been so down...like never before. And I now feel like it's over, just knowing that they're over. I'm ashamed of being so happy that they're finished.
Thank you. And it has been anguish. Like I've only known, one other time in my life. But at least I have hope now...and that feels like a lot.
