Well now I'm thoroughly depressed
 

Well I'm going to New Mexico next week so I got the old trunk of summer clothes out :distress:

I can't believe how much weight I've gained in the last year....I'm SO down on myself right now...it sucks.

Damn me and my love of all things chocolate and fatty.

Stupid summer clothes :mad:

Aw thanks - and no I don't think those who see me on a day to day basis notice anything - but yeah - it sucks to basically not fit into an entire wardrobe :mad:

I know it's no one's fault but my own - perhaps this is the wakeup call I needed to truly get my ass in gear and hit the gym BIG TIME - and more importantly to stop eating so much crap.

My diet has really gone to pot this year - but it was a big transition year - and now that I'm getting more settled I hope that my diet will improve :D It's not the meals that do it - it's the snacking - I'm SUCH a bad snacker...

look at it in a positive way .... it's an excuse to go out shopping for a whole new wardrobe!!! yippee!!

Deanna, you've posted your pictures here a lot ~ You aren't fat dear. My aunt can barely walk up a flight of stairs without stopping, having a snack, resting, then continuing. SHE is fat. :laugh:

From your pictures, I think you look great. :nod: Just try to think healthfully and stay positive. :)

If Deanna is fat, my name is Osama. You're as fat as Ruben is skinny, dear.

Actually...

My FIRST thought was "okay time to hit the gym like mad tomorrow"

Then I thought...."But wait, I should probably go shopping first because of early morning sales..." lol...I'm ALREADY putting off going to the gym :rolleyes:

I know exactly how you feel. Clothes that fit me great last summer look horrible now! I can still fit into them but everything looks tiny on me. And I can't blame it all on my clothes shrinking in the dryer! I have decided to be proactive though. I signed up for the gym this week and I can pick up my membership card tomorrow. I have a couple months before school starts in August and I want to be looking pretty good. It is not even that I mind being a little "big" but when my clothes look bad on me I get mad! I love to shop for clothes and when the trendy stuff looks comical on me I know there is a problem! Okay, maybe that is a bit of a stretch but I feel like I can't wear the "fun" stuff because I am too busy disguising my stomach!

Oh and thanks for the compliments guys...

Really I'm not searching for compliments....I'm just terribly bored tonight and made the mistake of trying on all my summer clothes :D

I have got to keep in shape because if I don't fit into my winter clothes in a few months then I'll really be angry with myself...

I've yet to put a bathing suit on this year. Talk to me after I do that :laugh:

I've been sprouting a nice gunt over the last couple of years. It's been a slow build but I really gotta start doing those things... you know... those... sit ups! :shocked:

This is true. I had something happen tonight that sort of irked me. Since I lost my job in mid-March, I've been cooking balanced dinners and eating only rice crispies for breakfast. I've also cut out all sweets. Well, I never bought sweets, but they almost littered my old office, and I'm a man of very little will power. I've also cut out Ginger Ale, beer, fast foods, high fatty foods, snacks, and have seriously cut down on carbs (though I'm not on Adkins). The end result is that I've actually lost twenty pounds in the last two months. So, I went to a bar to see two friends play in their new bands tonight. Most of the gang was there. Nobody noticed. :( God, I feel like honkin' down Twinkies and beer right now. So, don't worry. Not only will they not notice, they won't care!

I put on at least 15 pounds. I was really depressed this year, and I would hardly eat. Now that I'm better, I'm putting on all the weight I lost. See, I'M fat. Deanna, you're far from fat. Believe me.

Deanna...
 

Exactly. I ride a 25 pound roller coaster. I want to weigh 160, and my body wants me to weigh 180/185. I can be 160, but it means being hungry ALL the time! And, while I care a little- and no one should allow themselves to be OBESE- life's too short to go around hungry all the time!!!!! I feel we should enjoy life, not torture ourselves into looking like some screwed up view of what society deems we must look like.
And, at the end of the day, no one's going to love you anymore because you're 20 pounds lighter.

Deanna,
Don't feel bad. I bought a swimsuit and I took it home to try it on. :shocked: I guess that I did not get the memo that I was fat. :shrug: Anyway that is going back this weekend. I bought it right before my Vegas trip. I did lose some while walking miles in Vegas, however. Even though I ate pretty well at the buffets I really did not snack like I did at home. Well not too much.
I think that if you have an activity that keeps you busy you are less likely to hit those cupcakes and chips. Walking is a really good way to lose weight. When I was taking that photography class I was too busy going out and walking around to stay home and eat. When I did get home I was busy editing my photos and I just did not feel like snacking that much. I have to say that I felt really good. I have to get back into it. The last month was crazy. I did not have any car from May1st to May16th. I came home from Vegas sick and to some awful weather here in RI. Hopefully we will get some nice weather and I can get some nice photos. I did get a few in Vegas that I will post later.
Anyway, I really think that your brain (well mine does) needs to find an activity to focus on so that you don't get bored and then find a need to compensate by eating junk. Work or sitting at the computer is NOT an activity because all I want to do is EAT! :laugh:

Hmm, actually, I always think my life's too short not to look hot, and good in a swimsuit. :D

Yeah - I think a hobby would definitely help. I will be bringing my bike back from New Mexico - so hopefully that will help a little...

I did go to the gym today - then I went to Kohl's and bought some Capri pants that actually fit me...:D

I'm feeling a bit better today - after a nice workout and then I walked my dog - life IS too short to deprive myself of foods and things I lov e- I just need to learn to not overdo it.

BTW - I'm reading a hilarious book called, "I'm Not the New Me" by Wendy McClure who also writes for Television Without Pity...

It's GREAT for anyone who has ever struggled with weight :nod:

This is me, exactly. I have a closet full of clothes that I bought when I weighed 125, and now..... :shrug: well, they look like ****, those that actually fasten.

I go back and forth with the same 15 pounds, but trouble is, the older I get, the harder it will be to lose them....it'll turn into 20-30 pounds more!!!

But, life is too short to starve, so I'll just keep on jogging and doing weights, and hopefully I won't gain any more!! I have a serious night-time snacking problem, too. I LOVE to have cookies and milk when I'm settled in front of the tv or while reading. Yesterday, I bought some of those 100 calorie snack packs of oreo (slivers, really). If I can just eat one pack, maybe this will work!!!

That sucks that no one noticed!! But, you should be proud of yourself...you've made some serious changes and that's quite an accomplishment. *pats on back*

Maybe the bar was too dark? :cool: Or maybe they noticed, but were too jealous to say anything? ;)

I wish that were true. But one of my friends is Topher Grace skinny...I'll go with the bar was too dark...That'll help me sleep at night.

I was thinking, boys don't notice that kind of stuff anyways. :shrug:

Topher Grace is a REED. And he's tall, so it's very noticeable. I saw In Good Company and just wanted to phone him up to tell him to eat some protein. :laugh:

I'm sure someone will notice eventually. Are you tall? If you are, it's probably just hard to notice that you've lost it. I'm very tall, so when I lost all the "extra pounds" as a teen, I had to lose quite a bit before it was noticeable that I had lost anything. And congrats!

Hogwash! They notice it, it's just that they only vocalize it when it comes to women. :laugh: They are men, after all.

You think so? I would think most don't. Not you, most. :shrug:
But I can get with the fact that if they did notice it, they wouldn't say anything.... :nod:

I think they notice it, it just isn't a big deal to them, so they don't really say anything about it. From what I've seen in my lifetime, women and former fatties like myself are the only ones who *really* notice weight gains or weight losses. :laugh: It's when people gain a few pounds and exclaim "I'm fat!" when I roll my eyes.

Yeah. I suppose so. I'll be pissed if I lose 20 lbs and no one notices, I can say that for sure. :laugh:

That's hella lame. :mad: My family is kinda the opposite, when I'm at my normal weight they're all "are you anorexic?!" and like that. And when I visited the last time, I was 15 lbs more than i had been the last time they saw me, and my mom said "you look thin, are you eating?!" :confused: :rolleyes: Although i think once my dad slipped me a "move your fat ass" :laugh: Although I think that was a joke. I think they generally prefer that I am puffed up like...well, a puffed up person, I guess.

You should read Camryn Manheim's book Wake Up, I'm Fat! She talks about going shopping with her mother and when she goes into the fitting rooms, her mother slips her clothes many, many sizes smaller than she wears. :laugh: Not exactly subtle.

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Oh, yeah, you like that book. But, shouldn't lux read it, as my family (save my dad) seems to like me all puffed up? :laugh: I suppose my mom would slip me clothes many, many sizes larger than what I actually wear? "Here, honey, try this caftan..."

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Yeah, I love that book. Everyone should read it, it's fabulous. She rocks.

My mother used to buy me clothes as a teen that were too small and I'd be too embarassed to say so and would just toss them into my closet. :laugh: When I lost the weight, they were too out of style to wear.

awww :o little Diss. :p
Actually, no one really ever bought me clothes if I wasn't there. Except my cousin who lived in Manhattan, and my aunt, both of whom apparently had great eyes, cause everything fit me. :confused:

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I suppose I shouldn't have laughed, but it was a bit funny. I suddenly recalled being all upset that I was "fat" in seventh grade, and telling my mom cause I was so sad. She was all "well, maybe 5 pounds", but then, sometime while we were fighting, or something, she would scream that I was fat, a fat bitch or something. I wonder why that changed? But what I learned from that is, never tell your mom if you are sad about something, because she will cruelly use it against you at some later date, cause she is a bitch.... :lol: :lol:
The pain of your stomach consuming itself...i've never been able to fast, really. I guess the self loathing is my bag! :laugh: (My bag of Cheetos, that is).