I'm still here and awake, took a pill to help me sleep after the stress of this day...
I am actually the most spent mentally I have been ever in my adult life....
Running on just sheer will to hang in there and not quit...
I have my brother and family here with me, so I am fine I guess...
Mentally I am damaged, and this latest tragedy in my life has possibly pushed me over the edge, but I cling to that 'ledge' (Uh, No pun intended) with my fingers in hope I can pull myself up and over onto solid ground.
Debbie wouldnt want me to quit, nor would my Mom (If I harmed myself, Who would be waiting for me on the other side other than Mom, Who would kick my ass so hard that I would wear my ass as a hat and be a true asshat) so I try to hang in there best I can...
As the song goes "All I Can Do is Write About It"
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